The Trial

Sunday, July 24th, 2016

I have only now started writing today and it's *checks time* whoops! Five fifty four in the afternoon. Most of today was spent doing my hair that I filled you guys in on earlier, I highlighted it first and looked at it. But it was by far not what I wanted, it didn't show up that much and I wanted my hair to show up more red than it was. I sound like a spoiled brat when I say this, but I'd highlighted my hair before and it didn't turn out the way I wanted it. Now that I look back on the picture, it doesn't look that bad and I kind of wish I kept it that way... Kind of.

Here's the highlighted pic:

And here's what I look like now:

Obviously I look happier in the second picture *chuckles*

So, enough about my hair, this is supposed to be a journal about my trial, right?

Nanny is reading over the forums-which I'm supposed to be doing right now since I haven't read them yet...whoops-and apparently I have to take the medicine at the same time every day. I don't even wake up the same time everyday!!! Then there's also the variable that I'm going to be doing this trial during my school schedule as well, so I can't even take it later than eight in the morning. That's going to be fun.(Note sarcasm here.)
I'm going to go read these forms now... I think I need to educate myself on what's going to be controlling the next three months of my life....

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So I read a bit of the thing, but I can't concentrate on anything... I'm not scared, I don't think but it definitely is on my mind a lot. It's ten at night and I've been in bed for about an hour, supposed to be sleeping. But I just can't seem to do it. There's so much going through my head, and my dad put on Facebook that I'm doing the trial, which I wasn't going to do because... Well, I actually don't really know why I didn't want them to know. But it keeps popping up in my notifications and I have to think about it more than if I just kept it between us... I just didn't want people treating me differently because of it? I don't know what's going through my head right now. Luckily my best friend McKenzie_Curtis has always got my back and is helping me keep my head straight.
Though, there's this one friend of mine that I really want to talk to (and always do) but he's kind of a hard head and I don't know how to strike up a conversation with him over the phone. We're usually better at fave to face conversation, and he refuses to come hang out over the summer. Some advice would be greatly appreciated *chuckles*.

I should probably get some sleep, though I feel it's impossible at the moment. I have Black Veil Brides - Wretched and Divine: The Story of the Wild Ones on to fall asleep to, so hopefully Andy can help me sleep heh.

Good night, my darlings.

~Rebel W.