Makeup, Money, Minors, Madness And Miracles

Grade 05 - 2012

It was a full blown mania break down. I knew I was getting myself into trouble as it was happening. I couldn't stop though, I didn't want to. Or did I.

5th grade Catlin magnet elementary for performing arts

January 11th, 2012 6:44pm
Guess what i'm going to school tomorrow! Can't wait to see Linda! (BFF) I got a new movie and wii game from Kenta, what I said about him yesterday I take back, he can be nice & mean everyone can. Naiyah threw my cat off the chair in the living room ugh my mom should have told her not to do that. Naiyah's birthday is on the 20th and her birthday party is on the 22nd thoe. (Of january) I can't play just dance until 14 days after my surgury 6 days left!!! Yes now I can beat my mom! Finally. I drew this pic of: me liss and linda.

January 20th, 2012
I knoa today isn't valentines day but i'm excited.
Dear, Zach it is valentinea day so I guess I should tell you how I feel about you. Well how should I start this oh I know, Dear zach most girls like you because of your hair or whateber the reason is but for me it's because you'r funny and you'r nice to me. Whenever I'm alone with you I make a wierd shivering sound, and if you didn't notice (but you probably have) I always try to talk to you It's because I aant to get your attention, but sometimes I feel you'd rather do something else than talk to me. I really wish I was more pretty. Do you think I am ugly? Or do you just not like me I have to know you be honest with me and I'll be honest with you. Yes I think your Hawt (hot) yes I wish you liked me all the girls in our class say that I amnt pretty enough for you I know you like Linda but I've never wrote a love letter this might sound stupid but it's true that's why zach you are my valentine.
P.S please don't show anyone this note.
Always in love, Bridgette (bri)

- Bridgette never gave Zach the letter. The week after she wrote this she was explaining to Jazzy how she wanted to not fight with her and just be friends with her. Jazzy told her real friends know all eachothers secrets. She convinced Bridgette to give her her diary and let her read it in exchange for her own. Bridgette seen this as an open opportunity for a friend and agreed blindly without hesitation. She brought it the next day and Jazzy told her she forgot hers at home and would bring it the following day. Jazzy brought the diary with her to lunch and showed her friends sitting near her then she procceded to show zach and some of his friends. She returned it about a week later. (Which if you can see, is why there is such a big gap in between the diary entries. It goes January 20th then begins again at Febuary 2nd.) Usually at this time Bridgette is fairly consistent with writing atleast 4-6 times a week.

Feburary 2nd, 2012
I'm leaving my old feelings behind, never talking to Jazzy agen and I aon't be Maddie's friend but I will still talk to her and be nice to her.

- they had all the girls from both fifth grade classes together at recess time and there was 3 groups I kid you not of every girl belonging to one of these groups except Bridgette. The 3 groups were all friends. They would join in pointing at her at recess time and when she tried to talk to them they aould twist her aords and make the girls mad at her. She had a friend she had met prior to moving to Catlin 5th grade year, at a day care she went to in the summer while her mom and step dad worked during the day. She was the only girl Bridgette knew and she made fun of her hair and outfit infront of all the new people Bridgette had not even met yet. Bridgette laughed along and followed them like a puppy dog around the play ground. Moving so much she really had no friends so this was all she knew. It was the closest she had to a friend, none. Or fake ones at least.

The conselour also forgot to talk to Linda and me today. Linda is a great friend to have around! So is Liss. Once me and Liss stayed up until 3am watching music videos from ON Demand. LoL!

Febuary 8th, 2012
One day Jazzy is my friend then the next she is not. Same with abby. My mom says the re just jealous of me! Yesterday I told Jack that if he threa even one snowball at me while we were walking home that I would take snow and throw it in his face! He still did it anyways. We messed aroun and I didn't catch him yesterday. I told Jack I brought syrup for an icee and asked him what flavor he would like. He said he wanted a suicide, all the flavors mixed together. So I bent down to grab some snow and shoved it in his face then me and Linda ran. Jack stood up extremely angry and stood stating at me and Linda from the other side of the street. He grabbed a lot of snow. Me and Lindy reasoned that we were just playing around. He wanted to get me back. "I can stand here all day!" He yelled. I shrugged my shoulders. "So can I !" He walked over to a random kid from 6th grade that I didn't know going uo the hill, my path home and a sister in the 7th grade who would walk home her 4th grade brother, I walk home with them sometimes. He talked to them and yelled "Fine, you'll regret that." I started to walk up the hill he started following me so I started running. He turned around and went down the hill to walk home with Linda. Then the kids started chasing me up the hill. They threw snow at me until I was at my door at home I unlocked it and snow fell off me everywhere and I threw my glasses and book bag and my mom was by the door. I hugged her and I was crying too. She called the principal but they couldn't do anything my mom told me.