Garmau

Leaving...my love

~Aphmau's P.O.V~

I opened my eyes and saw not to far ahead was my home village. I looked back to see the ocean waves crash against the shore. "are you coming or what?" he said behind me. "go ahead tell them i'm here....i want to stay here for a while" I said looking farther into the ocean. I could hear his footsteps get farther and farther away. I sat down near the shore. The ocean was calm at the moment. I remember back then where this ocean was rough when i escaped. How the waves were furious and how much of the water was getting into my small boat. But the only thing in my mind was escaping. Right now that was the exact thoughts. I wanted to escape i wanted to run back to Phoenix drop. I wanted to be back with Garroth. "I'm so sorry..." i said into the ocean waves as they calmly crashed against the shore. "i'm so sorry i left ....I'm So sorry i didn't tell you about what i read...i'm so sorry that i made these choices, If i could i would restart this, if i could i would change my past so i didn't get here now. But if i didn't change me leaving...then Levin, Malichi, Garroth wouldn't have met me...Maybe for the better. And if i didn't meet them? guess i would have to still merry someone who i don't love or know." i said letting out tears. I felt a stinging pain in my chest. The image of never seeing those i loved hurt. I didn't want to leave i didn't want to let them go. But i knew the longer i hold on the more pain it would bring to me. Its best to leave my wounded heart broken then to hurt myself trying to mend the wounds. "Lady Jessica" I heard a few voices say behind me. I stood up a bit but never stopping the tears of sadness leaving my broken soul. "Come dear lets lead you home" a few said leading me towards my home. I looked around and saw that the sun was not to far from rising. Once at home i saw my father there pacing back and forth. The minute he saw me he stopped and smiled as he came to me hugging me. I didn't hug back, i didn't do anything, i didn't speak all i did was let out more tears. "My sweet child i have missed you" he spoke in my ear. I didn't respond. All i did was turn my head ever so slightly to look outside and see the sun rising. "i'm so sorry" i whispered out ripping myself from my fathers grasp and going towards the window seeing the direction that lead to Phoenix drop. "i'm so sorry" I spoke again gritting my teeth letting out more tears. "now my dear since your back. We will continue the wedding" my father said. The day i left my home was the day of my wedding i guess....everything is starting over since i left. I didn't want to look back knowing many people were looking at me. All i did was look out the window. My lovesick self was not having a good time...and i wouldn't if i get married....Guess some things just happen. Funny how this just seems like a big story writing my a craze girl only wanting our love to survive because she has gotten to attached to many things about our love and is crying because in reality it probably won't happen. But it's nothing more than a fairytale. Not even she can change what is going to happen in reality but here she can. "stop thinking silly" i said to myself shaking my head a little. before looking back at the ocean again. The sun finally up...Sorry for leaving my love.

(Sorry for the fourth wall breaking. But anyways you might be thinking why am i still going a Garmau fanfic if Garmau is dying....Well like i said. I'm loyal to anything. Loyal to my family, friends, and my OTP. I don't care how many of you probably gave up on Garmau but i don't quit. I'm not mad at Aphmau for most likely killing off Garroth but im just disappointed. I can't change anything because im not the one who has made the series. I respect Aphmau even if she most likely just killed Garmau. I don't care how many give up..I'm loyal and i will always keep my mind on it. I will write more of these Garmau stories to prove that even if something doesn't happen i am loyal to it....I hope you all respect that. )