Phantasies

Untitled Part 14

 *3rd person*

Phil lay on the couch surrounded by empty ice cream cartons and crisp bags. The was an alcohol bottle near by. His hair was unstraightened and he had bags under his eyes. Without Dan he fell into a deep depression. He would stay home and not attend his classes or hang out with his friends. Phil wouldn't even go on his phone to check his youtube channel.  Phil hadn't talked to Dan since the break up. He had tried calling but only his mom would pick up. Phil had asked her to tell Dan he loved him, and hoped he was doing better. Every time he had asked Ms. Howell would just say okay. Phil was starting to think he had lost Dan forever after weeks of not hearing from him. Just then he heard a soft knock on the door. Phil, looking surprised, sat up and walked groggily to the door still in his pajamas. He opened the door slowly only to see Dan standing at the door.

"Dan.. I-I um what are you doing?"

Dan took a second to look at Phil.

"Do you want to come in... its messy but I guess if you want to talk for a minute... we can go inside."

"Yeah sure" Dan said waving to Calem giving him the signal it was okay to leave.

Once they were inside Phil rushed to straighten everything up a little bit. While he was cleaning Dan said:

"Why didn't you call or come to see me did you not care?"

Phil looking confused said "I did. I called so many times. I've left voicemails, and messages. I told your mom to say I was thinking about you and how sorry I was. I came to visit you. I stayed all night.  I sent you letters and emails. Everything I could think of. When I didn't get a reply from you I thought I lost you forever Dan. I couldn't stand that you weren't talking to me.

Dan was confused...

Why hadn't his mom told him that Phil had tried to get ahold of him?

"Phil... I'm so sorry I thought you had moved on. I came here to accept your apology so I could get over you."

Phil sighed and plopped down on the couch. He put his face into his hands and just sat there. Dan began to notice how much of a mess Phil was. He saw the empty bottles and garbage. When he looked down he saw a bottle of pills. When he picked them up they were depression pills. Dan looked over at Phil with a sympathetic look. There were crumpled pieces of paper. Dan read one and it was a love letter to him. He looked around at all of the places they had shared memories. The blankets on his couch, the DVD's they had watched while cuddling on the couch so content in each others presence.

Dan walked over to Phil and put his arms around him. He whispered:

"Phil I'm so sorry."

Suddenly Phil pushed Dan off of him.

"No Dan. You shouldn't be sorry. Why would you want to come back to me? The person who cheated on you. I messed everything up. I lost your trust, what we had, everything that could have been. There's just no way you can feel bad for me. I'm getting  what I deserve."

Dan got up and took Phil's hands and looked him in the eyes.

"Phil I will never leave you. I know we cant be together right now. I'm not gonna get over you... EVER. Just right now I don't think we should try again just yet. You still have to gain my trust. Meanwhile I'm going to help you get your life back together. And I'm doing this all because I love you Phil."

"Dan why are you doing thi-"

"Phil... lets get to work okay?"

"Yeah okay."

They worked for hours picking up Phils flat. While they were working they talked about life without each other. Dan was homeschooled now and had made out with Calem. Phil told about how he had spent the last 2 weeks sitting on the couch. By the time all of the bottles the sorrowful ice cream cartons, the liquor bottles, and empty pill containers were cleaned up it was 11. When they were finally done Phil went to the bathroom and Dan sat on Phil's couch and looked around at all they had done while he waited for Phil to come back. He leaned against the side and pulled up his legs so they were curled under him. Dan closed his eyes and thought about all the memories that had on this couch. Eventually he drifted off into a small peaceful nap. When Phil got out of the bathroom he started talking to Dan thinking he was still awake. He saw him on the couch and looked desirably over to him.

Phil leaned down and gave him a peck on the cheek. Since Dan wasn't in a deep sleep yet he woke up.

"Phil... did you just.... Phil you know we are taking a break." Dan said groggily

Phil nervously stuttered "Yeah I just- you were so peaceful and cute and I just couldn't resist."

Dan rolled his eyes.

"Well I better get home huh?" Dan started "It is late and my mom  will be wondering where I am."

"Just say you spent the night at your little boyfriend *cough* I meant "Friends" house." Phil mocked.

Dan laughed and agreed to stay.

Phil made up the couch for him. He put Dan's favorite blanket of his on the couch. They decided to watch a movie. During the movie Dan fell asleep on Phils lap. Phil couldn't help but run his hand through the chocolatey brown gorgeousness that was dans hair. Eventually he layed Dan down onto his couch and went up to his room.

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I love Phan too much I don't want to break them up but I think calan has to go on for a little longer.