Phantasies

Pavement

*  Dan's POV*

Eventually I started to recover and began going back to school again. Of course everyone was staring at me. I felt like the loser again. After 1st period I couldn't take it anymore. I ran to the bathroom and hid in one of the stalls. I started going through my bag and found my Altoids container. Slowly I opened it and took out my razor. I saw the rusted edges stained with blood... 

Dan

Put it away

Put it away

I gave into my thoughts and put it away. 

I can't believe I thought about doing that. 

Pull it together Dan.

I put it back in my bag and leaned back against the stall wishing I wasn't here. I just wanted to be with Phil. I felt a tear run down my cheek. Why the hell was i so emotional? Even so I only had 3 more hours till i could leave this place... three more hours of hell.

I heard the bell ring and bolted out of the school when I got outside I heard someone calling my name. I turned around only to see Calem. The biggest jock at our whole school. When I tried to leave he grabbed my bad arm. A jolt of pain that felt like lightning shot up me arm.

"Ouch let go of me!"

Instead of letting go of me he called over his friends; "Hey guys I got the faggot!"

Soon I was enclosed in a circle of jocks. Before I knew it, I felt a blunt punch to the side of my stomach which knocked me to the ground. I felt more blows to my side, face and legs. I was like a soccer ball being shoved around from person to person. Every once in a while someone would grab me and throw me across the pavement slicing up my skin more and more with each time. After what seemed like hours they slowly started backing off.  

By the time I got enough strength to lift myself off the pavement the sun was setting. I expected to see the beautiful colors of the sunset but all I could see was a dull shade of gray. I didn't feel like going anywhere so i just stayed where they had left me. Looking around i could see small pools of blood around me. 

I deserved it.

I deserved to feel this aching pain.

God damn it Dan why did you ever think you deserved to feel good.

You are a waste of space.

*Phil's POV* 

I hadn't seen Dan since he started going back to school. I was starting to  get worried. He hadn't called, texted, or skyped me since the previous day. Dan wasn't answering his phone and I was starting to get worried about him.  After a while I walked to his house and asked his mum if he was home. She shook her head and said she thought he was at a friends house. I needed to get some fresh air and work my legs as I had been sitting all day. I ended up walking past his school.

*Dan's POV*

The ground hurt my bruised, scraped skin but I didn't feel like getting up. Everything hurt too bad. I tried to check my phone but it was smashed. It had smashed against my leg when I fell the first time. The shards of glass implanted into my thigh. Suddenly I saw a shaddow. I curled up into a ball and clenched my teeth. Then I heard the angel's voice.

"Dan! Dan! What happened...!!"

I groaned when I rolled over and barely got out the words: 

Phil..? Is that you?

"Dan holy shit you look really bad..."

I rolled over onto my back so it hurt less.

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This was so long!!!!