Broken, BUT Healed

Chapter 9:Im Not The Only One With Problems!

I blink rapidly. Did I just hear that? We stare into each other souls.

Yes, he said it.

And he's waiting on an answer.

You guys are probably begging me to say yes.

Hey! Don't rush me! I really need to think this through. Who would want to date in this situation I'm in? It's just too much.

But then again, I really like him. He's just perfect. Argh, why is this so hard?

"I-I don't know." I say softly.

"Im just not ready to be in a relationship, right now. I have allot on my plate, Kevin. I just can't."

He kisses my forehead gently.

"I understand sweetheart." He says with a sad expression across his face.

Ugh, I feel bad. And I really don't know why!

Suddenly, I hug him tightly, not letting him go.

He hugs me back rubbing my back.

"I miss you." I say to him.

"I miss you too, well you'll be home tomorrow, right?"

I smile and say, "Right."

"Well, you need some rest, I gotta stop by the church, I'll be back soon, love."

"Okay. " I kiss his cheek and he walks out.

I feel tons of butterflies fluttering in my stomach.

I like him. A lot. A lot.

I actually love him, I think.

I don't know this feeling, is it love?

I can honestly say , I never felt love. No one has ever loved me, I guess and I never loved anyone.

And I wish he was here, right now even though he just left.

I'm so bored.

I've entered the kingdom of boredom, and when you enter that kingdom, you do deep thinking.

I place my hand over my stomach and rubs it.

Maybe, this baby can change my life in a good way.

I'm going to have this baby, but I just don't know how to tell Kevin.

You're probably thinking he's too nice to be mad at me, but he's been mad at me before.

He'd probably freak out, and kick me out of his house. Ouch. Then I'd be a teenager with a baby and no home.

I wonder would he want to be with me still, I doubt that.

Anyways, Kevin said I should rest, so I will, and finally I close my eyes with a smile on my face.

When I open my eyes, Kevin is next to me staring at me like a creep.

"Hello, creep." I say in my raspy voice teasingly.

He smiles back, and plays back,

"I was watching you sleep the whole time." He winks.

I scrunch up my face, and laughs.

Did I just laugh? And I sincerely laughed. I never laugh like this, it's a good feeling.

"You're so cute." He says while showing his cute deep dimples.

"No, you're cute." I say back, pinching his cheeks.

"No. No. No." He says smiling.

"Yes. Yes. Yes." I say back teasingly.