You're Different J.C - K.L (Jian)

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- Kian

Jc literally let me down like that. Tears are coming out of my eyes like a waterfall. All I wanted to do was see him, and relieve my stress. That's what I did. It just went down all the way below the earth

I want him back and I want his touch back. I want to cuddle up next to him and feel safe again. I want my worries about him being in there to go away. I want him next to me and I want his lips on mine, like how they used to be. But now its different

He's different. Prison changes people. I need to get him out, he's not safe in there. He could get hurt really bad. His cheeks were flared and big from punches. I want him back. Not Justin Castillo. I want Jc Caylen back.

I need to get my mind off of ALL of this, its clear Jc doesn't want me back like I want him back. What even is back? We weren't ever a thing! What if he never cared about me?

I'm thinking the worse. I need to get him out somehow. Or forget about him?

"Forget about him Kian. In the next year he's gonna be asking who's kian? You need to find someone else" damnit. That voice, but new. Girlier

"Why the hell are you back" I ask myself, probably looking like a complete idiot. Its not even the same person what the hell are you thinking Kian

"To help you you dumbass. You need to find yourself a girl. Because right now there is no guys that will be interested in you right now" she makes a giggle

"I'm not straight" I role my eyes

"So you think. Come on find yourself. Think about yourself in a girls touch. Her hands running through your hair, her soft lips. Her genuine voice that just makes you melt" it seemed like she was going to each of my ears. ear to ear. I started thinking about it

Remembering how it was with Andrea "now I have access to whatever your last voice had and by the looks of it do not fucking think about Andrea" she laughs and I slightly nod

"No Andrea. No Andrea" I say to myself

"I will guide you through places with girls you've never met. Or a girl you might've met a couple of days ago. That could be the best for you Lawley. Get ready for a hell joy ride" I hear a smoke like noise. As if she disappeared. Great me going crazy again. Just what I wanted

I thought back about a couple of days ago. A girl? The only girl I talked to was the girl at Starbucks I see every single day and she seems to get my name wrong every time. But I can slightly tell she does it on purpose. I actually never paid attention to her except when I would smile through the pain

I sigh. I need to go there

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Honestly all this stuff with Jc fucking that girl and Kian and Dom making out with the other girl is so stupid and I just want Jian to HAPPEN PLEASE!!! The photos are horrifying even if Jc is in them and in just so done. I want Jian please and thank you.

Goodnight :)

AND ITS HONESTLY DOMS FAULT

OKAY

BYE