You're Different J.C - K.L (Jian)

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I didn't get drunk, surprisingly. I wish I did. This is all overtaking my mind, just like it did before I even confessed my love to Kian. Before everything happened. Because of me.

I just want to hold him again. After 3 years of being locked in a cell and hit everyday. At this point I wish I was beaten to my death

Maybe it would've been better? For me and everyone. My family is ashamed of me, and Kian doesn't even know me anymore. He calls me Justin for fucks sake.

Ethan has brain washed him, thinking I was dead? Who does that! Who stays with a person who lied and basically hurt him. He couldn't even walk, he was bruised from the neck down. And he's still with him?!

Thoughts start going through my mind, moments me and Kian shared.

The first time I saw Kian cry, he hurt himself. Because of Lia, and I stayed with her. There is a bad side to all of these memories.

The time Kian first kissed me. I felt a beautiful feeling and I ran off and made him run away. Making him not even say goodbye to me. He ran away from reality and thats all my fault.

The time I got drunk and hurt. Kian was there to help me but you know what I did? I basically refused to take his request

"Why the hell did I do those things?!" I shout to an echoing hotel room "I want Kian" I place my face in my hands, starting to cry. "I want to die" I whisper between sobs

"I want to die" I say again feeling my hands being soaked with tears. I didn't care, I wanted all of this.

Ding I heard my phone go off, I ignored it. Its probably just someone unimportant. The only person that would text me would be Kian and he doesn't care about me. And if it was him it's probably Ethan.

- Kian

"Goodnight Ethan" I whisper to him letting go of his hand as he rolled over and snored away. He was already asleep I was just standing beside him

I take out my phone while walking toward the door. I'm going to pick up some Chipotle and a Starbucks drink.

'Hey Jc? What hotel are you staying in?' He probably wasn't gonna answer, but its worth a shot

I got in my car, very quietly so Ethan wouldn't wake up. I started to drive off. Waiting a few minutes for Jc to respond. Of course he didnt. I texted again

' Jc please'

'Ethan why do you have Kians phone and why the hell are you texting me. I don't want to fucking talk to you!' I felt his emotions through the phone. It hurt me

'Jc it isn't Ethan. Its Kian trust me' he probably wasn't going to believe me

'Bullshit' see. I sent him a video while I was at a stop light

"Jc, its Kian just tell me what hotel your staying at. Please" I send it and he was replying fast. He told me the name of the hotel and I nod to myself putting my phone up

I had gotten his favorite burrito plate from Chipotle and his favorite drink from Starbucks. I was heading toward his hotel now.

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I soon got to his hotel and I asked the lady what room number he was in. 156,why did that number bring back so many memories?!

I stopped, trying to figure it out. I probably looked like an idiot. Oh my god that was the room Andrea had gone in. With the guy, holy shit ton of memories...

I started walking again. Passing numbers and numbers as I get to 156. I take a deep breath and was hovering my hand outside of the door, I heard sobbing

"I need you here, I can't live without you and if I can't get you back then. I might as well just not even try, it won't be worth it. I'm to weak" I heard Jc cry out and that is what made me knock really fast. Not caring if the neighbors heard my loud knocks. That made the feeling in my stomach grow

It hurt. I hears him sniff one last time and he opened the door, his perfect brown curls were messy, as if he ran his hand through his hair at a fast pace over and over. His face was soaked with tears and his eyes were so red. He looked like a wreck. A beautiful wreck.

He was just standing there. Shocked at what was standing in front of him and I set the food and drink down beside me. Holding my arms out to hug him

He looked right in my eyes as if he was dreaming and hugs my quickly and tightly. I lay my head on his hugging him back. His head laying in my chest felt so good.

He sniffed, breaking the hug "you actually came" a smile wouldn't creep up on his face even how hard I tried to smile huge. Mine faded and tears filled his tears again

"You actually came" he repeats again covering his eyes with his fingers. "Thank you" he snobbed in a low whisper. And I pick up the food as he moved out the way for me to come in

I set it on the desk and he shut the door, leaving wet finger prints on his door and he turns to look at me

"Why did you come" he squints his eyes, making the tears that were in them fall. And I quickly take my thumb and wipe them

"Because I missed you Jc" I say hugging him again feeling tears of my own coming. I felt back in place again, I felt like my heart just got back in shape

"But your with Ethan" he said in my chest and I nod

"I dont feel right Jc. I missed you so much" I say hugging him more, and so did he, until we both let go. Looking in each others eyes "I'm sorry" I give a small smile and he smiled real big

"I'm so happy" he smiled huge. Biggest smile I've seen in a while. From anyone. He looked at the food "you brought me food?" I nod

"Whenever I saw you, you looked so skinny. I dont want to see you like that" I go toward the sack and take out his plate and set it beside his drink "I wanted to make it up since I acted horrible"

"Thank you so much I l-" he stopped him self from what he was going to say. "I can't say that" he looked down and I shake my head

"Go ahead" I lifted up his head with my index finger and he was still smiling

"I love you" he whispered a bit as I saw him look down at my lips and I looked at his, his plump lips

God I miss them, so much. Every single time we kissed it felt like a dream come true.

"I love you too" I say quickly kissing him.

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Hey who finally got an idea? THIS GIRL DID AHA thank you I know alright. En- freaking- joy