You noticed me(teacherXstudent/GxG)

This version of my self is for you

Not, i repeat Not good at all. Fuck... What have i done? She has a fiance, granted i didn't know that before inviting her out but it wasn't supposed to happen, i mean i don't even really know her. Not really. I want to, as much as i can but last night can never happen again.

I continuously repeated to myself as i walked through the halls of the school that i don't have feelings for her. Yesterday was a mistake and didn't mean anything.

Easier said than done because as i turned the corner her eyes met mine and in my version of slow mode i watched her drop over a dozen files, the papers spreading across the floor and i rushed without thinking to help her pick them up. "It's okay, really i'v got it." She said in an occupied tone, her face however looked disappointed. "Look i wanted to say, about the other night-" "No, really it's fine. The other night was crazy and should have never happened, i made a--" 

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She stopped. The truth lying behind the words she's been practicing all day. This. Can't be. Happening...

Oh but it was. Sophie knew that she couldn't actually tell rose how she felt, it would ruin everything she'd been building since she got out of college. Her plan was simple: Go to college, graduate, fall in love and get married, have kids and settle down. She wanted what her parents hadn't gotten the chance to have, which was a life she chose.. But this.... No she didn't choose this, falling for Rose in any way had been the furthest thing from her plan.

However, instead of telling her any of the thoughts which were running through mind, she simply took back the fallen folders gave a slight nod and an even, "Thank you," and left. On the inside though she felt the need to turn and tell her everything, ask her if this was how she was supposed to feel, ask if this was what she wanted but she can't. What about Byron? Could she really hurt him, even if that meant she would get... What exactly? Love? Good friendship? 

"....Mistake." she said standing straight, keeping her expression as even as possible. "Last night was a mistake and will never happen again." Slowly Rose seemed to gather her thoughts and she rushed to say," yeah, i uh i completely understand. It was definitely a drunken mistake that didn't mean anything. I um- I'll see you in class."