I Found Myself In You..

The New Hope And The Terrible Hurt..

"I smiled because I fell in love....
You smiled because you knew..
~Shakespeare....

Armaan's POV:
Days became four from three..I still didn't see her..I was surviving on our pictures...went through the past..our walks,our talks, our plans, our mischief, our partnership..Us..
It all came together like a huge tsunami of memories..I had to find out about it and so I decided go to her home to meet her..

Zara had informed me that she returned but wasn't coming due to some "Unknown" reason..
I had had enough now..enough of not telling me why and where you are and why you aren't!

Next day morning..
Hurried to the college with the same hope of finding her but didn't! Still didn't know what to do! Even Zara didn't attend classes today and I ended up sharing my entire stock of thoughts with zeeshan..

I told him everything and enquired if he knew anything..I obviously was concerned about it..5 whole days! Not attending college is a huge thing!

Next day at college..
I decided not to barge into her home all of a sudden and wait for atleast six days and see..today was the sixth day..
Again with the same hope I hurried to the college only to find her sitting beside Zara and speaking..At first I was..happy but then..angry,concerned,upset but most of all disappointed!

I quickly approached her and held her by her arm not thinking about anything and took her to the side..
Zara stared at me the usual way and so did Mayrah but then she..had become weak..she looked pale..and sick..what had happened? Did she have some flu or something? Or was she sick?

I angrily asked,"where were you? Are you mad? Here people are worried as to where you are, how you are and here you are coming to college after 6 whole days and talking to Zara!
You can! Please go ahead!
But, why didn't you reply to all those message of mine? Day and night I kept thinking as to what must've happened and why you weren't coming and ...

Mayrah? Are you alright? Is everything fine?"
"See Armaan, I have a lot of other work and why do you keep messaging me?
Don't you have any other work? And why the hell were you worried about me? Thinking as to how I was? Who are you to do that? I was fit and fine perfect alhamdulillah and"...she stopped

Don't know why and gulped and continued with the same stern voice.."yes, I was good and I think you wasted your time! I was busy these few days and couldn't come!
It's that simple! And next time don't hold me by the arm..you don't have any..right to do so!"

And she went..just went..leaving me in a broken and confused state! What had happened?? Did I do something? Weren't we friends? I guess more but atleast according to her?
I didn't even have the right to hold her arm now? What had happened? What the hell just happened here? I was wasting my time messaging her and worrying about her? She asked me who I was!

I, Armaan...with whom once, she was the....partner in crime with..with whom she was her best crazy..with whom he felt he belonged..with whom he felt he possessed something Soo invaluable..
What had happened to all that? Most of all what was wrong with her?

Maybe I should speak to her once more just in case she was joking or had a bad mood or was angry with him on something he did which was unintentional..I should speak to her once more..

Mayrah's POV:
I hurried to the girls washroom..and stared at myself in the mirror..I had tears flowing from my eyes..what did I just do?
Zara came behind me and hugged me..she shouldn't have done that..because I broke again..and cried till I didn't have the strength to do even that..As I broke the hug, I said," I am sorry I wet ur shoulder and hijab.."
She smiled,"You think that's important right now?"
I opened my hijab, gave it to her washed my face and waited till the the redness of my nose disappeared due to all the crying and then tied it back again..