Our Own Forever and Always

Chapter Three

Josh's POV

What did I just do? I just kissed Jennifer, and I could have ruined our whole friendship. It was so surreal, so pure but... wrong! I'm such a dumb ass! I bury my head into my hands, running them through my hair. I turn to see Liam coming towards me, his mouth gaped open. "Dude, what the hell was that? Are you two... together?"

"No," I say, shaking my head. "No, we're not."

"Then what the hell was that, Mate?" Liam asks, looking around. "You'd better hope that no one saw that, or your girlfriend is going to kill you!"

"I know. I'm stupid." I say, looking down at the ground. "It's the alcohol. I'm drunk." I lie. "By morning, I doubt Jen or I will even remember it happening."

He nods, patting me on the back. "Okay, mate." 

"I guess I should get going now. I'm tired and I know I'll be hungover tomorrow." I turn, walking out of the party and getting into my limo.

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I sit in my hotel room, flipping through channels. I can't seem to find anything on TV, until Serena pops up, and I see a sex scene between Jen and Bradley Cooper. Of course, my luck. The one movie that is never on TV that happens to show Jen basically naked comes on when I can't stop thinking about her. I roll my eyes, turning the TV off and slipping my shirt over my head. I plop down on my bed, groaning.

I turn the light off, attempting to fall asleep. I know that I won't sleep well tonight, though. I can't stop thinking of Jen... her beautiful smile that compliments her sexy body, her beautiful dress tonight that clang to her perfect skin. I shake my head, attempting to stop thinking of her. After what feels like forever, I'm finally almost able to find slumber, when I hear a loud knock at the door.

I force myself out of bed, stumbling to the door. I rub my eyes sleepily, opening the door to see the last person I'd ever expect. "Jen," I breathe, looking her up and down. She is in her pajamas, and she has a bag of chips in her hand. She smiles, looking down at the ground.

"Did you forget about our movie night?" She asks, handing me the bag. I shrug, opening the door wider for her. I smile to myself, but bite my lip to hide it. She walks in, plopping down on the sofa. "So, I thought we could order some ice cream from room service. I'm really craving some rocky road."

"That sounds good." I say, sitting next to her. She leans on me, resting her head on my shoulder. I open the bag of chips, and she opens her mouth. I place a chip on her tongue, and we both laugh. She leans farther on me, making a small noise that makes me flutter inside. I don't know why I love her so much. Thinking of how much I want her makes me remember the kiss. Our kiss. I sit up, and she looks at me confusedly. "So about earlier..."

"Josh." She says, shaking her head. "Don't worry about it. We were both drunk and not thinking at all. It's not going to effect our friendship."

"Okay," I say, laughing. After a few minutes, our room service arrives, and we end up watching Midnight In Paris, one of Jen's favorite films. Afterwards, we talk for hours, laughing and making jokes. Sometimes I forget how much Jen and I have in common. It's like the kiss never happened. Our friendship couldn't be damaged by anything.

"Oh my god," Jen says sleepily. "Look. The sun is rising!"

"Have we seriously been talking for that long?" I ask, grabbing my phone. "It's 5:39."

"Oh my," she says, yawning. I lean back, and she snuggles up against me. "Let's go to sleep for a few hours." She whispers, resting her head on my chest. I smile, wrapping my arms around her.

I don't know what I'm going to do. I know I love Jen, but I've been dating Claudia for years. At the same time, though, I'm just not happy with Claudia anymore. I can't keep living like this. I know I'll never be happy if I do. All I know is that I want Jennifer, and I love her more than anyone in the world. I just don't know if I can have her.