she's MINE!!

chapter 4

I woke rapped in a gray silk sheet which was weird considering my covers where white my confusion was shortly lived when i remembered everything that had happened...i just had my first panic attack in a month.

"she will be fine alpha just give her some time to explain things on her own and I'm sure she will esplian it all.  I'm sorry but i must dash" A female voice that i couldn't recognise says from the other side of the slightly cracked open door.

"okay your dismissed" The voice i recognised as Matthew replies. I don't understand what is happening? why am i in this strange room? what is an alpha? and why did she need to be dismissed? my head was swimming with a pool of confusion and it didn't help my head really hurt.

"oh your awake" Matthew smiles as he enters the room and shuts the door behind him. I sit up as he sits next to me on the bed i could tell he wanted to ask me things but i wanted to ask him things also.

"I'm sorry i ruined everything" I sigh looking at my hands as i fiddle with them on my lap. I feel him move over, his hot breath hitting my cheek just before his lips do i look up just as his lips leave my cheek

"you didn't ruin my day I'm just happy your okay" I blush at the connection he made with my cheek and how my tummy felt all bubbly i was on cloud nine and i never wanted to come back down.

"of course I'm okay why wouldn't i be?" i smile at the fact he was concerned and worried showing me he cared

"you scared me and lana she still thinks its her fault, luke is trying to calm her but she isn't happy with herself. what happened lily? you where fine one minuet and all panicking the next?" he seemed confused and was searching for some sort of answer on my face.

"I'm sorry for worrying you all but I'm fine its just something i have to go threw and cope with. lana shouldn't be blaming herself it would have happened wether she pointed it out or not just a little slower and a bit more frantic...Matthew i need you to promise me you won't laugh or judge me for what I'm going to say?" my whole mood had droped and my throat felt like it was going to close.

"i promos baby i would never do such a thing" My hart jumped at the name he called me which uplifted me slightly.

"umm well" *deep breath* "I have anxiety and a panic disorder which makes my fight or flight seances irrational and more heightened than most people. Me and my mother have been to see doctors and councillors don't get me wrong its nice to talk to people sometimes but other times it seems that people don't get it" he lift my chin so my eyes meet with him instead of my hands.

"If you ever need anything and i mean ANYTHING just ask i would hate to think your suffering in silence when i could come and make things better. You could call at 1A.M and i wouldn't care i would be at your door within seconds...all I'm trying to say is don't be afraid to talk to me or anything I'm always here for you" I felt tears slowly rolling down my cheeks as he talked and as quick as they fell the quicker mathew wiped them away, he slowly leaned in and kissed me.

At first i wasn't sure what to do but my brain replicated his movements like it was a natural thing to do, his lips where soft and he tasted like suttle mint. Sparks shot threw my body, my hart was ponding, my body craved his touch and something inside me told me that mathew was the guy i was going to sped my entire life with and i could trust him with my life. 'MATE!' a voice shouted and i jumped back from the kiss startled.

"whats wrong? did i do something?" Matthew jumps at my actions his voice filled with worry.

"d-did you hear that?" I started looking round the room for any indication of anyone else.