And Then There Was Indigo

Part 22

She ran blocks away from Treys house and had her grandmother come pick her up at a far away gas station. It was raining and she was crying as Armani stayed on the brain and as she was carrying a baby by the devil. She was soaking wet as she entered her grandmother's house and entered the guest room. She was relieved that these walls weren't the walls with Trey in them.

Indigo just wanted to call Mani and pour her heart out to her and ask her so many questions but she'll never be able to do that and those times are officially gone. She had to write down her pain to Mani. She got a pen and some printer paper from out of the living room and shut the door to the guest room. Indigo looked around at the small room with the couch and old tv in it and floral comforter. She much preferred this as oppose to laying in Versace sheets with a snake. Indigo wished she had listened to Mani and didn't get blinded. She wished she would've never started fucking with Trey.

To my best friend Armani Marie Bellon:

We met in our home room tenth grade year. You liked my hair and I liked yours. I used to get mad as shit at you for touching it knowing damn well I just got my swoops done! On twin day, I didn't match with my boyfriend I matched with you in our blue hollister jogging fit and all white Air Force ones. We used to be getting kicked out of class because we couldn't stop laughing. You used to scoot in between me and Tommy in the hallway making us burst out laughing. You made it known you were my boyfriend too! I was more shy but you were my voice at times I couldn't speak. You're the reason why I'm sassy as hell now, you showed me I had a right to be. All those times we went to the movies and you paid for me and never rubbed it in my face. All those times I cried and called you anytime of the night and you answered. You were the big sister I never had and All of the advice you gave me and 9 X outta 10 it was right. Armani I was selfish toward you and I could've valued our friendship better. I wasn't there for you like I was supposed to be but you never called me selfish because you saw what was going on in my head but still that's no excuse. You always comforted me and was too busy holding me on your back that now that I think about it, I can't remember being that same strong force to you. I'm sorry Armani and it hurts me so much that I can't look you into your eyes and express my regret and apologies. It hurts me so bad that I will never sit up late with you and crack up laughing ever again. It hurts that I can't hear you trying to be my momma ever again. It hurts that we can't crack on each other ever again. We never had a squad it was just Armani and Indigo. I love you so much and now that you're gone, it's hard for me to even envision my future. I can't see past tomorrow because I'm still stuck on when your dad told me you weren't breathing. The look on his eyes and what I felt in my body when I heard it. I should've listened to you and stuck by you but I chose temptation instead. Damn, I'm crying as I write Armani because I miss you so damn much. This world will never be a warm place without you. How can God do this? I would rather it be me than you. I just can't...like not having you here hurts me so bad to the core. I can't even laugh, I can barely eat, and I can't dream about anything in life Being brighter. This is me still being selfish because I wasn't ready for God to have you yet, you're atill suppose to be here and be my sister and nag me in my ear and play spades with me and getting drunk and laughing. That's suppose to be happening right now I'm suppose to be telling this to your face not to your grave. This is the most fucked up thing ever, you just can't escape my mind. I love you and there will never be another Armani Bellon. You were a brand honey, you were it and I'll never stop missing you my sister. The world will never be the same. I can't even say nothing humble about it like you got angel wings no forget that, you were suppose to be here. You were suppose to have kids and get married and spread your wisdom from generation to generation. You were suppose to teach your little sisters the game like how you taught me. You were not suppose to be gone at all, tragically or so soon. My beloved sister, my beloved friend, I will miss you and love you always my angel.

Indigo wiped her tears. She popped in the movie precious and gained so much wisdom from it as she grabbed her stomach at 5am. She closed that chapter with Treasure and that's that. She even tossed that phone as soon as her grandmother called. She was done and fed up. Fed up with everything.

In the precious movie, she noticed precious did not abort her child she conceived from rape, rape from her father at that. Indigo rubbed her belly and couldn't even imagine getting rid of a baby. There was hella bloodshed and tragedy and the last thing she was gonna do is have more blood and death on her back. She watched precious love her kids from incest and she rubbed her belly which was hard and slightly bulging. Indigo can't believe she didn't notice it until now.

"Baby Armani." Indigo said as she rubbed her stomach. She felt her chains come off, although she was still broken and deeply pained at least she wasn't laying next to Treasure. 

She lifted up her shirt and this feeling got inside of her. It was the feeling of motherly love. She was a mommy now. She felt all type of sin and bullshit leave her body, it disgusted her and she was gonna stop crying and start over.

She grabbed that paper she wrote to Mani and kissed it and her stomach turned thinking about Treasure.

"You gone get yo justice Mani." Indigo whispered as tears fell out of her eyes. She was gonna handle everything else but losing Mani was gonna hurt forever. She was gonna do right by her best friend and make sure Treasure pays for all he's done.