Mindless Behavior Preferences and Imagines

Lost Ones

(Your Point Of View)

You sit there in your bathroom trying to wish it all away. Praying that none of this is true. You have so much ahead of you. You are one of the top students in your class. You're supposed top be graduating with honors this year. The future ahead of you is so bright, that is unless this test is right. 

You sit there cowering in the corner with your knees to your chest and head down, praying that you didn't ruin the innocent futures of three diffeent people because of one night of fun. You lift your head and stare at the test of doom across the room form you. You had thrown it because you didn't want to believe it lies. It's like it's silently mocking you. 

You decide to be a woman about your buisness. You pick yourdelf up look into the mirror and tell yourself "If it is true then so be it. I have been tossed many obsticles and this is just another." Drying your own tears in the mirror you then remind yourself that this is a test of strength that, just like everything else you did, you will prevail. You decide it was time to tell him. 

You walk out of the bathroom leaving all your worries' grab your keys' and leave out the front door of your house with a new found confidence. On your way to his house you think of ways to tell him. Hoping that the reaction isn't too bad, you pulled up to his house. He was standing outside with his friends. You, now nervous of the audience' get out of the car and approach him.

"Ray", you say in a meek voice, "we need to talk." He looks at you with a skeptical face and simply replies "About what?' You look at him and wonder if he has any slight idea or if he was entirely clueless. You look at him with a unsure look in your eye causing him to start worrying. You finally speak up and reply "About what happened the other week". After you say that he gets the point and escorts you to the house.

"So what is it you need to talk about?" he asks as he plops down on the couch you still standing. "You see" you start off kind of weakly then you give yourself the same pep talk in the bathroom and continue a little more pep in your tone, "I took a test today and it was positive". He looked at you confused and asked "What test? Please don't say any type of STD!", arching his eybrow at the last statement. "No Ray, I'm- I'm pregnant", you said while putting your heasd down in dissapointment towards yourself. There was an awkward silence where nothing was said until you broke it. You raised your head to see Ray in a state of shock and awe. I wish I could say he was shocked because he was happy but that wasn't the case. "Ray what do you have to say?" you ask in s shaky tone. 

He took a deep breath before saying "Look I don't know nor could I ever imagine what its like for you. I mean look you sitting here with a life in you. Now I'm not tryna pick a fight with you, but if you think about it we aren't ready for this-" you cut him of and say "What are y-" then he cuts you off by saying "Wait let me finish. Now we barely kids ourself how we gone raise a kid by ourself. I'm not even over 20. Where am iI going to get this money. But right now I'm kind of lost". Once he finishes you take in what all he was trying to say and speak with a knot in your throat "Ray I pray to GOD that you are NOT talking about what I think your talking about. You this is my body so don't think you finna force SHIT. This is my baby too and I aint about to abort it. I knew this was how you were gonna act but I hoped that you were different. Remind me never to get my hopes up around you. And you of all people knowing your past with your dad and you sit here with all this bull ish. I don't expect to be your wife but I'm gonna give this child a life. And I refuse to be lost" After your speech you see him sitting there with his eyes glistening. He stands up wipes his eyes and gets ready to walk back out to his previous company. Before he steps out he says "Let yourself out".

You stand there in shock and awe thinking about what just happened. After a few moments of thinking you open the front door to wal out. As you're walking out you hear he and his friends conversation it went something like this:

Ray: Yea that's what she told me

Roc: Damn but I heard they be tryng to trap a nigga

Prod: Yea if she really pregnant tell her to get her an abortion

Ray: I did man but she said I aint finna force it.

Prince: you see that's where you went wrong. If she is pregnant than that is YOUR seed no one else's. That is YOUR 'mini-me'. YOU have to take up for that. Be a man whether you want her or not at least want your child. 

Ray just lets out a frustrated sigh.

As you were listening what some of the guys said really hurt you. You could tell Ray was really thinking deep about the situation. This made you feel a little better. When Prince stood up for what was right it restored your confidence. After you heard Ray's sigh you continued to your car. You pulled away from the drive way blowing a sarcastic kiss and drove to the clinic. At the clinic the test was negative. You went bacl you Ray and say "Thanks for teaching me not to mess with a f*** N**** like you. And I'm gonna keep your number so don't try hitting me up I'll no it's you". With that you walked away with a pep in your step making sure to never make that mistake again.