Mindless Behavior Preferences and Imagines

Save Me

{So this Imagine is about self-harm. I know a lot of people have negative thoughts about themselves; some people have it stronger than others. This Imagine is just to show that there will be a brighter side to it all. I can say I personally know how self-hatred and self-harm is and it's horrible especially when you're getting better and then go right back to where you started. So here's to those who feel the need to be loved by someone else before they can love themselves.}

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Y/N

Kalamazoo, Michigan. That's where I ended up. I don't know how or why. But here I am standing at his hotel door. I'm drenched from head to toe from the rain that's pouring outside. My tears mix with the wet from the rain and if I wasn't sobbing it wouldn't even seem like I'm crying.

I stood here frozen. I don't know what to do. It's like I'm paralyzed and I can't knock. 'I'm going back home. There's no need for me to be here' I think to myself. Before I could move the door swings open and I hear his voice. "Y/n?" He says confused. "Roc", I whisper quietly as I look up to see his tired eyes facing my red blurred ones.

Roc

"Y/n?" I say confused as to why she's here. All I heard was sobbing and I come to the door and see this. "Roc", she whispered almost silently as she looked into my eyes. Her eyes were red and sore. 'No. No. No.' that’s all I could think when I seen her. This is exactly what she looked like when it happened last time.

I pull her into a hug and hold her remembering what had happened last time.

4 Months Ago 

Roc

"Babe!" I shouted through the house, looking for Y/n as I walked in. "I'm home!" I say after there is no response. I start to get curious as to where she was because she said she was going to be home all today. I walk up the stairs to our bedroom.

"She's probably at a friend's house because she got bored", I say thinking aloud to myself. I decide to call her to make sure she's okay, just in case. I dial her number and I hear it begin to ring from my end. Seconds later I hear her ringtone going off in the bathroom.

"Babe?" I say in a confused tone as I turn my attention to the bathroom. At this point I decide to go investigate because she'd usually yell something like 'In the bathroom' or 'Hold on, be right out'. I walk to the bathroom and knock softly. "Babe you in there?" I ask. No answer. "Babe." I say getting a little more agitated. No answer. "You know what? I'm coming in." I say as I twist the door knob. The sight that I seen made my stomach churn and my heart hurt.

"Y/n!" I yell as I see her in a pool of her own blood. I run to her to see if she breathing, and to my surprise she is. "Baby, baby, baby, what happened? What did you do to yourself?" I ask an unconscious Y/n as I cradle her in my arms.

I quickly pull out my phone and dial 9-1-1. "9-1-1 what is your emergency?" a soft feminine voice speaks from the other end. I sniffle before answering and reply, "My girlfriend is unconscious and has lost a lot of blood."

"Sir I'm going to need you to stay with her and stay calm. I'll have an ambulance sent that way. What is your location?" She tells me in a calm tone. "We're on 6726 E Lynn Lane", I say trying to keep the tears back. "Okay I'll need you to take a cloth and wrap her wounds tightly enough in order to stop the bleeding."

I did as I was told quickly because I just couldn't lose Y/n. I put the phone on speaker and sat it on the counter and pulled off my shirt as Y/n lay in my lap. I tear my white-t and wrap all the wounds on her arms. I pull her back to me. "You're not leaving me, not right now." I whisper into her ear as I gently kiss it, tears rolling down my cheeks.