Deal With Kade Fajardo | Fin

Thirty

Forgive me for not updating Kade. Huhu. Yah know hell week. Kade is ivading my damn head and I can't frkng focus sa pagr-review ko I have an exam pa talaga tmrw and it's major. This will be a short update hehe. Ayokong mangako ng update. This sem is kinda frustrating at nkklk.

#DWKF

"How's my baby?" I didn't know how many times did I ask the nurse and the doctor about my baby.

My head is still kinda umiikot at kumikirot pa. I woke up earlier na parang may pumupokpok sa ulo ko.

"Your baby is safe hija, we should be thankful dahil hindi nalaglag ang baby mo."

I just sighed and moments later umalis na rin sila. Darn it! Kanina pagkagising ko I was naghi-hysterical and napaparanoid. Who wouldn't? For goodness sake!

Dad already knew what happened. He ask me kung okay ako at 'yung baby. I told him na okay naman na ako he visited me kanina.

I went out of my room and tumakas ako sa nurse ko to check Kade. I'm mad at him! Galit ako kahit hindi naman niya ginusto 'yung nangyari... What if tatlo kaming namatay sa aksidente na 'yun? What if ako at ang baby namatay or siya? What will happen?

He's staring at the ceiling. Obvious naman na may iniiisip. Maybe he's blaming his self for what happen.

Bakit hindi? May kasalanan parin siya. Call me insensitive or what pero galit ako sa nangyari. It's not just an ordinary thing.

Pero kahit na ganun may parte parin sa'kin na gusto siyang makita.

Gusto ko siyang yakapin and tell him that he didn't need to blame his self sa aksidenteng 'yun... But there's a part of me na ayaw.

I really don't know...

I stood beside him. He just gave me a blank expression. But in just a seconds nawala din 'yun, napalitan ng hindi ko mabasa kung anong expression 'yun.

Halo-halo.

He grabbed my hand and held it tight and pulled me, enough para lang mayakap niya ako.

I didn't move nor nagreact. Hindi ko alam kung bakit...

He buried his face on my neck and pauli-ulit na "sorry" ang naririnig ko from him.

"It's my fucking fault, freaking thanks to him that you and the baby were safe."

He got bruises pero wala akong paki. Hindi ko alam. Naiinis ako kay Kade.

I furrowed my brows. "We almost die."

He looked away. "I know,"

Ayokong makita si Kade. Ayoko muna siyang makita. Naiinis ako sa kaniya. Ang babaw ko ba? No, for me, it's not. Just put yourself in my shoe.

It's not a fucking ordinary situation. We're just lucky na walang nangyari sa'ming masama.

Thanks to God. But I can't help it. I was mad as hell kay Kade.

I turn my back and was about to leave. Pero natigilan din ako sa sinabi niya.

"Let's just not see each other for the mean time. Fuck me for what happened. I can't blame you, it's my fucking fault. Tangina hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko kung may nangyari."

I got hurt when he said na 'wag na muna kaming makita. Damn that Fajardo! Damn, Kade.

Bakit ganito siya? 'Yung comfort lang ang gusto ko, na he will do something para mawala ang galit ko. But not this---goddamn it! Hindi ganito!

So he wants this? Fine!

I asked the doctor if I can go home. When he said yes, I immediately pay my hospital bill and nagpadischarge na.