Deal With Kade Fajardo | Fin

Thirty Nine

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Hindi naman naging matagal ang byahe. It's just an hour, I guess. Nasa labas na kami ng Alfuente International Airport.

Umismid ako. Nakakainis! Simula talaga ng dumating si Kade ni halos hindi na ako pinapansin nung dalawa. Oh well whatever.

Napanguso ako. May pinagbubulungan silang tatlo tapos mukhang tuwang-tuwa pa si Easton sa pinagbubulong ni Kade. While Weston is just listening while nodding his head.

Nakataas kilay akong lumapit sa kanila.

"Deal?"

"Deal, dad!"

I crossed my arms. "Deal? What the hell, Kade Fajardo! What the heck is that? Ano bang pinagtuturo mo sa mga anak ko?"

Hinapit niya ako sa bewang. Halos mapasinghap ako sa ginawa niya. Dammit, Fajardo! Damn you!

"Ours, babe. Anak natin. Always, remember." he whispered in my god damn ears.

Hindi ko pinahalatang naapektuhan ako kaya tinulak ko ang dibdib niya at humalukipkip. Urgh! Tangina naman ng puso ko, oh. Why does it beats like this fast? Shit.

Saglit kong pinasadahan ng tingin ang wrist watch ko at nahuli ko siyang nakatitig sa akin. Now, I'm fucking irritated by the way he stares at me. I just really want to lash that smile on his luscious lips! Oh god damn it, Astrid. Don't you dare to praise that jerkass!

How can't I fucking praise him? Magkakasala lang ako lalo kapag nagsinungaling ako. Nakakalaglag obaryo lang talaga si Kade. Just like before. But he's more damn attractive now. Right freaking now. Feeling ko dahil sa sobrang kaOA-han ko. Pati mga internal organs ko malalaglag na. Ayoko mang titigan siya. But damn me! He's just so fucking ugh. Come on, self. Tigilan mo na 'yan!

Umiling ako sa sariling kagagahan. I know, I'm sucked at lying. Stupid me. Wala na. Ganoon pala iyon, 'no? Kahit ano pang pagdedeny. Kahit ano pang pangloloko mo sa sarili mo. You'll just ended up loving the same person who breaks you and hurt you. It's just like that. Kahit sobrang lalim. Kahit sobrang nasaktan ka. Sa kaniya ka lang din naman babalik. Sa kaniya lang ako babalik. Babalik at babalik lang ako kay Kade.

I smiled secretly.

Even if we were not given a second chance? Maybe? I'd still choose to love him. He's just my everything. Kahit pa wala na kami. I'll stay. Stay loving the person I really hate the most eventhough he's the one who breaks me. The one who killed my heart and left it somewhere.

It will be still the same person. The same person. Kade Fajardo. Funny, right? Where did we hella started? On a fucking deal? Sa pagiging stupid ko para lang sa ano? Maybe I'm just plain stupid, dumb Astrid before.

Para nga ba saan iyon? Because of Trace and Trix? Nakipag deal ako ng dahil lang sa mga walang kwentang tao? Really and Seriously? I did that?

Well, I did not and did regret it. Bakit? It's because, unexpected things happen. It was almost perfect. We're almost perfect... Kung hindi lang nasira at nagkagulo.

Maybe we chose the wrong path and we decided to chose the wrong decisions. May mababago kaya kung... Wala. Malamang ito parin ang kahihinatnan. Why? People will just commit mistakes because of the wrong decisions and choices. It's just like that. Isa pa. Kung sana pareho kaming matured that time? Hindi, hindi sana pa mangyayari 'to.

I admit that I'm weak that time. I should've stayed and let him explain his side kahit ayaw pa niya. Edi sana hindi malala. Hindi malala ang naging gap. But things were like that.

Problem and wrong decisions will not make us grow. Maybe, somehow. It helped us.

I am stupid. I am damn stupid. Denying that I did moved on, it's just defense mechanism. You know, I got hurt. Minsan pala kahit anong dikta mo sa isipan. Heart won't just let you. Mas matindi mang dikta ang puso. Kahit anong tanggi at ayaw mo. Heart just won't let you. My heart didn't let me, alam niya. She just definetly know, that I can't. Alam niyang si Kade. Si Kade lang.