Hold On Till May (a Fuenciado fanfic)

Wonderless

*Vic's POV*

I was surrounded by black. I couldn't see anything surrounding me, just pitch black. I closed my eyes to see if that would make a difference. When I had I opened them again there was a television set in front of me. One of the old ones with the wires that stuck out from the top.

All I could see was static but soon the dials began adjusting themselves, until a room had appeared on the screen. I look at the screen in confusion, wondering why this was here. Soon two people had entered the room. I couldn't see the faces but by the hair I knew that one of the two people was Jaime. I smiled at my boyfriend.

They began talking. I could vaguely hear what they were saying so I walked over and turned up the volume.

"See Jaime aren't you so much happier now that, that he isn't in your life anymore?"

I gasped realizing at once by her voice, that it was Selena....They were talking about me. I leaned in closer.

"Mhmm I had always regretted going out with Vic. I mean he's fat, ugly, stupid, and weak. Unlike you Selena, you are perfect."

With that he walked over towards her and grabbed her by the waste and they began to kiss, which rapidly turned into making out. I felt tears rush to my eyes watching this. I began to back up saying "no, no, NO!!!!! THIS ISN'T REAL!!" I closed my eyes to stop from having to watch them. I heard a laugh behind me. I spun around. It was Jaime and Selena, both of them wrapped around another. Selena smirked at me while Jaime just stood with a disgusted look on his face.

I started shaking. Selena was the first to break the silence.

"So Vic how's if feel to be all alone...again?"

A tear slid down my face

"I told you, people like you don't deserve to live. You should just kill yourself" she said with a sickly sweet smile.

Jaime then opened his mouth "Vic I hope you know that our 'relationship' was just a lie. An excuse for me to build up your love and trust and then tear it down"

I was now sobbing

"In fact I hope you know that right now even the sight of you, makes me sick."

He then turned around and started kissing Selena, while I stood there watching as my world crumbled apart, tears streaming down my face. The urge to cut was so bad right now, I looked down at my wrist to see the white lines forming smiles up at me.

Selena said "that's right you emo fag just go cut yourself."

She started cackling Jaime's sweet laughter soon joining hers.

I started screaming and shouting "NO!!!! YOU SAID FOREVER!!!!!!"

And with that I was jolted awake by someone shaking me. I looked up to see Jaime. I instantly burst into tears and raced into the bathroom while grabbing my blades on the way. He was trying to catch up to me but I was quicker. I quickly closed the door.

He was now pounding on the door telling me to let him in. I just screamed "LEAVE ME ALONE!" and burst into tears yet again. After awhile he had left so I went and sat in the tub. I looked at my blades and against my better judgement I began to cut.

I felt the icy blade run across my wrist, I flinched at first but soon felt my eases slip away. I kept cutting more and more deeper with each and every cut that I had made. I had soon ran out of space on my wrists so I started on my thighs and moved down my legs until I was bleeding from head to toe. I began to feel numb and light like a feather.

I shakily stood up and made my way to the cabinet which held Tony 's antidepressants and Mike's sleeping pills. I grabbed the bottles and swallowed most of the pills. I could no longer feel anything, I dropped the bottles on the floor pills scattering everywhere. I with the blood dripping down all of my body I wrote on the floor tiles "I'm sorry" and then I lost my sight. I heard a door break open and someone say "call 911 now!!! and felt my body being lifted before I blacked out entirely.