Hold On Till May (a Fuenciado fanfic)

May these noises startle you in your sleep

*Vic's PIC*

When me and Jaime had ran into Selena at the restraunt I almost had a heart attack. But as always I played everything off normally, but when she had given me a hug she whispered into my ear,

"invite me to dinner or I will kill you and take Jaime away from you"

once she was done she smiled up at me and then I said

"Oh, yeah, so would you like to j-join us for dinner?"

mentally slapping myself for stuttering. Jaime had raised his eyebrows at me by I just quickly looked away and sat down. When I saw Selena grab a chair and sit next to Jaime I had to clench my teeth before I said something I would regret.

As the dinner went on I was there physically but not mentally. Both of them would ask me question and I would just nod and say "yeah". I know Jaime knew something was wrong but he wouldn't dare say anything in front of her.

Finally at last dinner had ended and me and Jaime had stood up, Selena following our example. There was an awkward pause before Jaime had cleared his throat and said

"well it was lovely seeing you again Selena," with a smile and as we were walking off I had turned around and saw her staring directly into my eyes and saying

" oh and it wont be the last".

My heart raced when I saw this an I began to quickly walk away.

When we had finally found Tony and Mike (drunk *cough*cough*) we had found our car and loaded them both inside and as we were driving they were murmuring things like; "I love you" and "You're so cute" and me and Jaime just looked at each other and just laughed.

When we had finally reached the bus Mike had passed out and Tony was not to far behind. I quickly said "I'll get Tony" knowing that Tony would be much lighter than the passed out Mike. I picked him up and made my way into the bus leaving Jaime struggling with Mike, by the time Jaime had managed to get into the bus I already had Tony in his bunk sound asleep.

I had begun to start looking for something to sleep in when I heard Jaime say " Um hey Vic can i get some help here?" I looked back to see Mike holding my boyfriend tightly by the waist forgetting Mike was a cuddely drunk, I just laughed and helped him get out of Mike's restraining arms. Jaime looks at me and says

"Thanks sexy" with a wink and he wraps his arms tightly around my waist. I wrap my arms around his stomach and just looks up at him. When we finally let go I say " we should watch a movie or something".

He runs off to go grab some random movie and I grab some pillows and blankets while he puts in the movie. We cuddle up next to each other and end up falling asleep that way.

Well Jaime anyways, my brain just won't shut up, it replaying all of the things that had been said today. My demons coming back again...but this time with a bite. I want for nothing not to just go and retrieve my blades from my bag and slit my wrists until the last few drops of my blood spill to the floor leaving me dead.

I sigh and look at my boyfriend, my perfect boyfriend. He's to good for me, flawless in every way. While I on the other hand am flawed in every way; I'm fat, ugly, covered in scars, troubled thoughts and all-around a failure. I sigh and stare at the ceiling of the bus. Tonight's going to be a long night.

*AN*

ok ok yes I am a terrible person haven't wrote in two months sorry I think I will be starting this back up again.