Here I Am

Please Don't leave Me

Denis Pov

Its been weeks since iv'e seen him the last thing i could remember what happen between us two was me throwing the ring at him. My heart breaking into a million pieces tears starting to sting my eyes my vision blurring. I'm laying in Sams and Cam's guest room the day they told me they where dating we were sitting at the table eating dinner. " Hey Cameron will you pass me the peas " "sure thing " Cameron said winking at Sam pushing the food towards him. Sam had just picked up the plates getting something out of the freezer " where did all the ice cream go " asked Sam, " i don't remember eating it " said Cam.

Yeah sorry its been a hard time for me this past week since the end of tour couldn't look them in the eyes, i couldn't stop crying long enough to do so. Its okay i'll just buy some more when i go to the store. my phone went off telling me iv'e missed another missed call from Ben only making me want to cry harder. I haven't talked to him since i left him, sine he cheated on me the tears are threatening to come out harder now. My phone goes off again turning my phone over *new voicemail*, trying to forget everything for a while trying to focus on what Sam was saying. " But anyways i have something to tell you iv'e been keeping it from you for a while i thought it would be a bad idea if i told you when we left after tour ended". Okay well what is it i finally stopped crying only reason was because i wasn't thinking about Ben anymore at the moment.

"Well " Sam said getting closer to Cameron as he started talking " me and Cameron are ummmm... dating " i could see Sam and Cameron trying to read what was going to happen next really worried about my reaction maybe, they thought they should have never told me by the look on there face. Managing to try to put a smile on m face i was really happy for them don't get me wrong but i missed Ben but i'm not ready to talk about relationship. Trying my best to smile , i'm so happy for you walking closer to Sam and Cameron holding back the tears that follow. Seeing them smile was a good thing. I faked a yawn telling them i was tried trudging up to my room. Softly closing the door behind me sliding down the wall. Tears had finally won the fight. Feeling my phone go off again looking at the screen seeing his name coming on my notifications.

Finally giving in looking at what he said climbing into my bed turning off the lamp sitting in the dark listening to his voice mail.

" Denis look you are the love of my life i will do anything to make you see that i didn't do anything wrong i would never want to hurt you every kiss we share waking up to your sleeping face everyday feeling your lips on mine is amazing. Everytime we had sex it was fucking amazing i wanted to spend the rest of my life with you but i fucked it up Denis i love you and i never meant to hurt you i'm so sorry."

Tears started to fall faster pressing my face into the pillow to keep my crying down i don't know what i'm going to do without him he was my everything 2 weeks ago. Maybe i was dumb and everything was not as it seemed, that's all i hoped for looking at my phone realizing still had a unread message from him. Trying my best to stop crying blinded by the bright light, i still have not changed his name in my phone

My baby: " Denis i'm so sorry you have to forgive me i hope you're safe i have no idea where you are Sam won't tell me where you are maybe for the right reason. I really wish that we were planning our wedding right now, I am so sorry..... "

Turning off my phone trowing it somewhere in the room not really caring where it landed crying until i couldn't produce tears anymore my eyes sticking together soon falling asleep......

James pov

Driving over to Sam and Cameron's house to see what was going on between Ben and Denis i have been watching over Ben for the past two weeks even thought he never comes out of his room i still try and see if he is alive. Walking up to the door knocking hard to wake them up it was really late, Not really realizing that it was in the middle of the night. A sleepy Sam came to door rubbing his eyes " what is wrong " he asked as he answered the door. We need to talk letting myself into the house "umm okay " Sam said half asleep " Babe whats wrong " Cameron came out of there bedroom good your up too. "What are you doing here " he needs to talk to us about something just go back to bed i can handle it " Sam said waking up slowly " Okay " slowly leaning down to kiss Sam on the lips tenderly mmmhm guys my eyes i need holy water smiling they pull away, walking up stairs. Leaving me and Sam alone.

Sitting on the couch Sam taking the other couch looking at me to say something what happen between Denis and Ben everything between them was fine and all of a sudden Ben won't come out of his room, I've been trying to get him out of his room for two weeks he won't come out. Sam looked green as soon as i said this, "Well um Ben said that he cheated on Denis when he went to the bathroom with some stranger in the bathroom ". Is Ben really that stupid i meant to say more to myself then out loud " what are you talking about " Ben was by my side the whole night i followed him to the bathroom last night he was hugging on me crying because he didn't want to fuck up his relationship with Denis he was nervous about getting married to Denis they had plan to get married a couple weeks after the tour was over he was starting to get cold feet about the whole thing.

He loved Denis he was scared that he was going to change his mine he tried kissing me, but i told him that he loved Denis way to much to fuck his own relationship up with the guy he loves so much. I see the way he looks at Denis love in his eyes only caring Denis and making sure that he is okay. It started clicking in Sams head i could see his brain start to work as he started to process what i just told him maybe this will fix things between Ben And Denis Sam suddenly got up moving way to fast, he had to grab hold of the chair that was right beside him. Running up the stairs. What the fuck he is doing ?

Denis pov

The door open all of a sudden shaking me from my sleep scaring me, Sam turned on the light " Denis .... Denis b... ben " BEN WHAT ! even though he broke my heart i still cared about him " he ... he didn't cheat " He said trying to catch his breath from running up the stairs tears coming out of my eyes oh my god i fucked up with the only guy that i loved "oy what the fuck is going on in here !? " a very cranky Cameron came into the room. Ben didn't actually cheat , trying to say all this with my voice cracking brig my legs to my chest laying my head on my knees i need to call him now. Searching for my phone finding it unlocking my phone, getting weird looks from lads while doing so. putting the phone to my ear waiting for someone to pick up .

Hello ?................