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04. I don't want you.

Songs for the chapter:

Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You
Jussie Smollett - Good Enough

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"Malika, is that you?" I heard a familiar voice, while pushing around the shopping card in the supermarket, looking around the counters.

I turned backwards, meeting with a familiar face that I haven't seen for awhile. A smile appeared on my face, while looking at Maybelline's big stomach. 

"Maybelline?" the words came out like a question of my mouth. I had to assure myself that this is the girl who was always saying that she doesn't want kids before two years and now was sitting before me with a big tummy, looking like six months one. 

"Jesus! I haven't seen you for such a long time!" she said, coming near me and hugging me.

"How are you? What happened to you? I thought you don't want kids." I laughed, looking up and down at my friend again.

"Alex is guilty for everything!" She sighed, rolling her eyes.

"Alex? Our Alex?" I asked and she nod. "Wasn't he a gay?"

"Do you remember George?" she asked me without answering to my question. I nodded. "Well, the things with him became serious and he started talking about marriage, kids.."

"And what had this to do with Alex?" I laughed, interrupting her.

"Well, you know how convincing he is? He decided he wanted to become an uncle and convinced me to agree with George about the kid."

I giggled and shook my head. I forgot how crazy my two best friend were - Maybelline and Alex. One of the best moments in my life I spent with them.

"But what's up with you? You just stop calling us.." She started talking and I just sighed. 

After the things between me and Justin started to go down, I just closed myself in me. And when I found out about his unfaithfulness, I shut myself even more. I stopped talking to my friends, stopped going out. Every time I was finding a different excuse to not go out with them and then I just stop answering their calls. Everything was coming from the fact that I was blaming myself about what was happening between me and Justin. I thought that if I change some things about my life, everything between us will go back to how it was before, but nothing of this happened. 

"I was busy.." I shrugged. 

Maybelline raised her brow, looking right in my eyes. I turned my head to the other side to avoid her eyes. She knew me too well and she didn't need a lot to find out that something was up. That was the other reason I was avoiding my friends. They knew me too well and it wouldn't cost them a lot to find out, and I didn't want that. I was ashamed of that. 

"We will leave this conversation for another time." She sighed. "But we seriously have to go out. What about going to a club some night?"

"Seriously?" I laughed, looking at her. "Going to a club with that tummy? Don't you think you have to preserve yourself from some things?"

"Oh, don't be stupid! You know me! I already escaped twice from George and went out to one new club with Alex, where we will take you! We had a lot of fun, even though Alex didn't give me to drink alcohol and limited my moves. He became a real nerd." Maybelline rolled her eyes.

"I wonder why.." I laughed again.

"I can't wait for this thing to come out, so I can get drunk!" She sighed.

"You'll have to wait a couple of months after the childbirth, even a year I would say. You have to suckle the baby." I shook my head with a smile on my face. "What's the sex of the baby?"