Colors ○ jb

09. The Advertisement.

Songs for the chapter:
Medina - You and I
Drake - Marvin's room

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"Mom!" Jason's voice made me turn around.

A smile showed up on my face, while my little boy was running towards me. I picked him up and spun him.

"Did you miss me, honey?" I asked him, holding him close.

"Very much."

Until now, I hadn't left Jason alone for more than a few hours. I was used to him being with me all the time.

I had just finished in the studio, waiting for him in the front of the building, wondering when he will come. My hair was still damp and the wind was blowing out and I was hoping I won't get sick.

"Come on, let's go home." I told him, leaving him on the ground. "Your father is waiting for us at home, he got Chinese for dinner."

"Really?" Asked Jason and his big eyes were staring straight at me.

I nodded and laughed. I grabbed his little hand and led him towards the parking lot where I parked the car a few hours ago.

Frankly, I didn't want to go home. In those few hours, while we were shooting the advertisement, and for a minute I hadn't thought of Justin and all the problems in my family. It was like I zoned out completely and I could enjoy the moment for which I was happy. Maybe that's what I needed and might not be bad if I listen to Pattie and find a job. I guess the organization about the exhibition will also distract me at least for a while.

I needed to think of different things to distract me, because I didn't know how long I can keep that secret to myself. It was one thing  all I endured from Justin.. I swallowed things from Justin, coping with this pain, but It was hard to deal with the other .. The one that I have kept only for myself and which I was afraid to share with the others. I couldn't tell them .. I myself still couldn't realize it, I would be silent as I can, although it wasn't right. They had to know.

I sighed and shook my head. I had to blow off those thoughts out of my head.

Forty minutes later, I parked in the yard of our house with Justin.

The living room lamps glowed and I assumed that as always he watched the evening news. And my suspicion proved true. When we went inside, we found him watching them. I shook my head and a faint smile appeared on my face. Jason hurried and rushed to his father on the couch. Quite often he was angry when Justin was lying to him, but he always forgave him. He couldn't go without his father and I see it. He loved him a lot, though Justin didn't deserve a drop of his love.

"Come on, let's have dinner." Justin said, rising from the couch with Jason in arms.

Our eyes met and he smiled at me, and I slightly nodded my head. I followed them into the kitchen. I was still silent past him. So many things I had swallowed before, but somehow I couldn't anymore. I still felt hurt by his words and I couldn't forget them. I couldn't believe he thinks I would get our son involved in the things between us. I wasn't like that. Jason was the last person I wanted to find out about Justin's infidelities .

Throughout dinner Jay never left his father's side. For the first time Justin fed Jason and I was surprised by the fact. Justin helped him and taught him how to hold the two sticks while eating. Honestly I have to admit I had quite fun with these two. I don't know whether it is necessary to mention how much I had to clean up after them? They made dirt around the table and the table for about a week ahead. There was a Chinese all over the kitchen and the dining room and I didn't even know how it got at some of the places. These two had the capacity for at least five.