the angel outcast

the loss

hellisten didn't know what to do, everything he ever wanted just burned down to ashes.he sat in his living room watching the empty fireplace for days only thinking about his dead family. i am poison, i destroy everything i love, i can't save anyone, i should have died, those thoughts played over and over again. he wouldn't move from that chair for years dying from starvation over and over again.God stopped sending tasks for hellisten . hellisten didn't think anyone still cared about him until he heard his door open.

"get out of my house!"hellisten said

"don't worry i am not one of father's boy scouts, i haven't been for a long time"lucifer said trying to calm hellisten

"what are you doing here i didn't call for you, you have no business here now go back to hell" hellisten yelled

"you're hurting brother , i am here to help you need someone to talk to"lucifer said worryingly

"you want to help, then take my soul and bring back my family" hellisten yelled

"i can't! it doesn't work that way . even if i could i wouldn't , it will get better"lucifer said now more worried than before

"then you can't help me, no one can. i am forced to deal with what i feel there is no distraction to mask what is real "hellisten said with aggression in his voice" i kill them all! every last one of them !"

"no hellisten that's not the way to go" michael said as he walked out from the shadow " hello lucifer, what are you doing here?"

"i am here to help my brother , what took you so long to get here ? were you busy killing more innocent families?" lucifer screamed

"i didn't do it i tried to help. how dare you talk to me like that you sorry excuse for an angel!" michael screamed out

"if all you two are going to do is fight then just leave"hellisten said with a stern voice

"we are here to help nothing else"lucifer said with a soft voice

"you know my mom would come to me in times of i couldn't handle what have done and she would tell me she loved me and tell me how her family would be nothing without me but look where they are now! they are dead and it's all my fault" hellisten cried out

"it's not your fault, the pain will go away it just takes sometime " michael said

"i got all the time in the world so this shouldn't be a problem, now leave me" hellisten said while cutting his wrist and watching it heal

"if that is truly what you desire, call me when you're ready" lucifer said while walking out the house

"as you wish brother" michael said while following lucifer out the door

hellisten really didn't want them to leave but he felt like if they continued to be around him they would get hurt, which he couldn't stand to be the cause of anymore. he was conflicted with wanting to hurt everyone but not ever letting anyone get hurt. he didn't know how to get better but he knew he had to get better somehow. he was willing to do anything to get rid of this pain he felt in his heart. before he did anything he promised to make an honorable grave for his family. everyday he would go to where he buried his family and work on making life sized sculptures of his. he worked on every little detail try to make it just like them. it took half a year to finish but when it was done and hellisten was finally able to just look at it he broke down in tears and begged forgiveness and praying that they would still love him after what happened.

"mom, dad, gabriel i am so sorry this is all my fault i should have been there. i promised to always protect gabriel and i let him die, i almost got him out of the house but i wasn't fast enough. i love you all so much and if i could i would gladly trade my life for yours but i can't, i tried. i know it's not going to be easy but i have to try to get rid of this pain but i promise that i will never forget you .i have to get myself back on the right path now because i know that's what you all would have wanted but i make sure to come back and visit, i love you" hellisten said to the sculptures then walked back home