Caryl S7

Am I stupid?

The world is really insane, and it made me insane too. My emotions are mixed, things get weirder day after day. I asked myself 'why did I leave?' Oh yeah! 'Because I can't kill anymore'

There's blood in my hands, and I can't add another package.

Morgan saved me the day I almost got myself killed, he killed for me. He's been taking care of me ever since people from The Kingdom took us to their community. I already met the leader; King Eziekel, and his pet Shiva. But how am I doing? Well, physically I'm getting better. Emotionally, I just don't know. I don't know what the hell's going on in my mind...it's really interesting how we thought that our main problem were walkers, when people were the problem.

Eziekel wanted to see me, I don't know why, but I don't have a choice but going...Morgan helped me walk there.

E: I'm glad you came.

I looked back at him surprisingly.

E: I just want to know you a little bit more.
C: Why?
E: Because I know everyone here.
C: What do you want to know about me?
E: Where do you come from? Why were you out there? Why did you get shot?

I starred at him for a moment and then looked away.

C: I come from Alexandria.
E: Alexandria? I've heard about it a couple of times...and why were you out there?
C: Because I had to.
E: Were you on a run or something?
C: No! Why do you care?
E: Because you're staying here now...and I need to know you're story.
C: My story? Is that what you want to know? Alright then.
After I saw my daughter Sophia as a walker...I changed into someone I should've been before ...but things I didn't expect happened and I killed people...How many? Well 25. Who are they? Oh let's see ...Ryan, Karren and David, Lizzie, couple of people from terminus, and couple of Wolves, Plus a couple of saviors....and back then when I left...it's because they were coming...and I'll have to kill to protect my people.

Eziekel went silent for a minute.

E: Listen to me Carol...this world, your gonna have to kill if you were with who you love...and if you were alone. And what you did...with all due respect...is stupid....if your daughter was still here you wouldn't hesitate to kill for her.
It's all the same.

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