Suicidal thoughts (Discontinued)

Let it all out

Patrick's POV

I'm not even watching where I'm going. Which is really stupid of me because next thing I know I'm running straight in to a random person and falling on my ass. "You okay kid?" The figure asked.
"Yes I'm fine" I replied standing brushing myself off. I didn't bother looking at who it was so I turned to walk off.
"Wait a minute. Patrick is that you?" The figure asked me.
I slowly span back around facing the man. I was confused until I realised that it was Brendon Urie an Ryan Ross. "Oh uh sorry Brendon."
"Don't apologise Trick. What are you in such a rush for anyway?" He asked laying his hand on my shoulder
What was I supposed to say now? I know I can trust them. I couldn't hold it in any longer.
I fell to my knees at Brendon and Ryan's feet,sobbing, with my head in my hands. Immediately the pair of them knelt at the side of me.
"Your coming with us now" I had no choice. I could hear the seriousness in Ryan's voice. I stood up, still sobbing, and walked with Ryan on one side and Brendon on the other.

Pete's POV

Patrick had been gone for way more than an hour now. I'm really worried and had only just stopped crying. Joe and Andy haven't left my side since I broke down and Patrick wasn't answering his phone either. "Hey maybe he's on his way back Pete..." Andy was trying his best to comfort me but I wasn't working it was just setting me more on edge. "Yeah maybe" I mutter to myself even though I know it's not true. "I hope he comes back soon." I say as Joe hands me a glass of water just as I had requested. It only takes me seconds to down the glass of water and wiping my face on the sleeve of my fleece. I check the clock, he left at 2:43pm and now it's 5:57pm, where the hell is he? "Joe....what if he doesn't come back?" I feel like I'm on the edge of a meltdown. "He will Pete, I promise"

Patrick's POV

After my run in with Brendon and Ryan they walked me back to their house and sat me on the sofa. Ryan made my favourite,hot chocolate, I loved the way it warm my hands as I held it tight. "So spill the beans then..." Brendon gesturing for me to start talking.
"I don't even know where to start....I've been feeling a little bit..down lately and I haven't been dealing with it very well so I started cutting again. But then Pete walked into the bathroom on me today so I ended up running out as Andy and Joe walked in from the movies" I explained near enough whispering. "Then I just kept running wherever my feet took me and then I bumped into you two."
The both of them looked very taken back by what I told them. I already felt rotten enough. "You told me you had been clean for 2 months Patrick! Did you lie to me?!" Brendon was furious. I made a huge mistake telling him.
"I was until 4 days ago. I promise I didn't lie! Please believe me Brendon!" I suddenly start to feel nauseous.
"Patrick show me your arms..." Ryan's soft voice soothed me as he gestured to my covered arms. I looked from Ryan to Brendon twice then sighed. I winced as I lifted the sleeves of my sweater over my arms.

Ryan's POV

As Patrick lifted the sleeves of his sweater I say the state of his arms and my eyes widened in pure horror. I could see the pain plastered all over his face as I run my fingers softly over the fresh cuts. I look into his eyes and all I can see is hurt, pain, anger and the need for help. That's what it is....he is just a young boy pleading for help but nobody is responding. "Oh god Patrick these are all fresh!" I look up and down the underside of his forearm. Every bit of it's surface is swollen and sliced up with hardly any clean spots.

Brendon's POV

I can see the horror cross Ryan's face and the hurt in Patrick's eyes as he looked at me. I'm so scared for him, I have had depression but not this bad. The cuts on his arms are layered and spiking out in all different directions and then I just give up holding back my tears. They slide silently down my face and Patrick looks down at his lap and cries a river all over my sofa. "We need to get you back home to Pete, he's probably scared shitless. Come on Trick." I walk towards the door with my arms wrapped around Patrick and Ryan following not far behind.

That was probably really boring for you guys. It was really long sorry :) hope you like if so far
Lauren xx