What am I doing?
Where am I going?
Can this life just end?
I can't stand myself anymore. I'm not pretty. I'm not smart. I'm not even funny. Being 5' 8", you'd think that I'd be athletic, or Atleast rightly proportioned. But no, I'm not. I have medium, slightly wavy hair. My weight is the biggest problem. Being an 18 year old obese girl, you don't get many dates. At 14 I was already 180. Four years later I put on 40 more pounds.
Even tho I go to the gym, and starve myself, I don't loose any weight. I've even resorted to being bulimic. Which just put me in the hospital for a week, and trust me, even laxatives don't work. I've tried everything.
My mother always said I wouldn't amount to anything. Maybe she was right. I'm not going to, because tonight, I'm actually going through with it. I'm going to make myself happy.
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Let Love Consume Us (An Austin Carlile Fan Fiction)
FanfictionHalayna's a girl that can't stand herself anymore. She doesn't want to be here. Being a girl that's over weight and doesn't have a way to make herself feel better. Until she finds an outlet.
