If I Stay

Chapter 30

Jc's POV

I havent heard from Courtney in two days, & I was beginning to worry. What if she really did want us to break up? That cant be. Hell, she kissed me before she left that night. I tug my fingers through my messy hair. Maybe I should stop by her house, take her to the mall or something. Itll give us some time to talk about the other night.

I get up from my bed, throwing my thick white sheet aside.

"Jc?" Kian yells down the hall. I pull on some jeans before walking out of my room.

"What?" I respond, rather rudely. He scowls. "Im going to the mall with the guys, you coming?"

Well shit.

I nod my head. "Im just gonna get dressed & drop by Courtneys house. Ill meet you guys there?" I should really call Courtney to see if she has anything planned instead of just showing up at her house, but I decide against it.

I get dressed, tugging my favorite pink crewneck on, along with my white vans. I retrieve my keys from the coffee table  before getting in the car.

"Courtney!" I yell, knocking on the front door. Maybe she's asleep? "Courtney?" I raise my fist to knock against the door once more, but the door opens.

There she is, her hair in a mop on the top of her head, an oversized tshirt drooping over her shoulder revealing her soft, tan skin & collar bone. I smile. "Hey baby." I finally say. She smiles, pushing her hair out of her face.

"Hey." She steps back, gesturing for me to go inside. "What are you doing here?" She closes the front door. "I wanted to know if youd like to come with the guys & I to the mall?"

She stays quiet for a second, rubbing her eyes tiredly. How can someone look as perfect as she does in the morning? "Yeah sure. Let me get dressed." My shoulders relax a bit. I was beginning to think she'd have plans with someone. Sam. My subconsious adds. I roll my eyes.

How would I even bring up the other night? Will she even want to talk about it? I rub the back of my neck, frustrated.

"Ready?" She asks, walking down the stairs. Shes dressed in light blue jeans, white toms, & a peach colored tanktop. Her hair was up in a pont tail, her curls falling over her shoulder. I smile at the sight of her.

"Yeah lets get going."

"Hows your mom?" I ask, circling around the parking lot for what seems like the one hunderedth time. I notice a car pulling out of a stall right infront of the mall. I stop the car, leaving enough space between my car & the other persons car so that they can back out.

"Shes been sort of out of things, yenno?" She shifts her body so that shes completely facing me.

I feel sad, almost angry, for her. She doesnt deserve to be in the situation she is in now. I remember when we first hung out, at In-n-Out, & she scurried away at the mention of Ricky, her brother, being one of the best friends. I never really thought of it that much. Until now that is. I never really thought that Ricky would turn out to be some physcopath who abuses his own sisters. Atleast he's in Florida for digifest.

"Jc? Someone took our parking spot."

I snap back to reality, a smug expression on her face. "What? For fucks sake!"

I never curse, but im just too pissed because of Ricky & now very much annoyed with the dick who stole our spot.

I put the car in drive & speed past the asshole.

"There, right infront of the tree. Someones leaving."

I wait until the blue van pulls out & drives away before reversing the car into the stall. "About time." Courtney laughs, getting out. I scrunch my nose playfully. "Hey, next time youre driving." She throws her head back in laughter.

I snake my arm around her waist, tucking my fingers into her back pocket. "Where do we have to meet them?" She asks.

I dont answer, instead I take in the flawless features of my girlfriend; Her round, pink lips are pursed as she aimlessly looks around the crowded mall, making her hair whip from side to side. Her eyes flicker with something. Anger? Shock? Excitement?

"Over here!"

To my surprise, I see Sam, Kian, Connor, Kian, Andrea, Jenn, Rebecca, Jarred, Angelina, Sophia, & a brunette haired girl all sitting on the bench surrounding the water fountain.

"Ricky isnt here, its okay baby." I whisper into her ear. She leans inti me slightly, relieved.

"Its about time you guys got here. We were starting to think you guys ditched us!" Connor says, hooking his arm around the brunette. Who is she?

After exchanging the usual hellos to everyone, we walk towards Zumies. "How have you been Courtney?" Andrea asks, clicking her tongue.

Courtney doesnt seem to notice Andreas question. "Babe, Andrea asked you hoe youre doing." She snaps her head to face Andrea, a fake smile plastered on her face. Is she okay?

"Ive been good, thanks. What about you?" We walk into Zumies, Sam & Kian bolting to the back of the store. "Ive been good! Kian & I are celebrating our 6 months tomorrow."

I scoff. 6 months? How could Kian waste 6 months with her? I never liked or took an interest in getting to know Andrea, & I dont plan on it any time soon. Shes annoying & her youtube videos are not all that great.

We spend majority of our time in the food court, picking off eachothers plates & laughing about Vidcon 2 years ago, when we all first met. "Remember when Sams butt was all over twitter? That was hilarious!" Kian says, his nostrils flaring.

"Really? How?" Courtney asks. She seems happier than she did an hour ago, & Im glad. "Kian here tweeted it out. A fan account, SamPottorffsAss, made it her icon!" We all burst out into laughter.

Im enjoying spending time with my best friends, & my girlfriend.

Sam wraps his arm around Sophia, & I notice Courtneys eyebrows knitting together. Is she... jealous?

Courtneys POV

I take a bite of my Chinese food, & look up at Sam. I have to admit, I do miss being in a relationship with him. He was so goofy & never really took things seriously. However, seeing him with that girl is gut wrenching.

Am I jealous? Maybe. But I have Jc, who is just as amazing, who respects me. I catch myself daydreaming about Sam & instead of that girl with his arm around her, that was me. I sigh quietly to myself before getting up to clear my tray.

"Is everything okay?"

I turn on my heel to see Sam.

I nodd my head. Liar. Youre not okay. You miss him. My subconsiouness snaps.

I bite down on my lip to prevent myself from crying.

"Are you sure?" His light brown eyes burn through mine, a single strand of hair falling onto his forehead.

I fight the urge to brush it out if the way. Damnit Courtney, stop. Youre dating Jc.

"Yes, Im fine." I say in a whisper.

No. Im not fine. I miss you, Sam. I miss having your arms around me. I miss going to the bonfires. I miss being the reason your cheeks turn a deep pink. I miss running my fingers through your soft curls.