I Thought That You Were Gone (Phanfic)

A Sprinkle Of Hope

The next hour is me sobbing on Phil's bed, the last thing that I had done was kiss him on his cheek, I wanted to replay that moment too many times. He was now most probably dead. I cried and cried and cried and cried. 

I heard the doorbell almost an hour later, I'm in no shape to answer the door, but I do anyway. As I unlock the front door and open it slowly, a very big pink and yellow blur nearly knocks me out with a hug. 

"Dan. Oh, my god. You look a mess"

"What 'd ya expect?" I said gloomily, still crying slowly

Louise was clearly in her pyjamas, but had brought a suitcase... She had absolutely no makeup and her hair was everything but tamed. I stood in the hallway, In Phil's favorite shirt, jeans and socks with my stupid Hobbit hair. 

"Dan, lord. I-I don't know what to say." Gasps Louise nervously

"Louise, he's gone." I reply shortly

"There's still hope, Dan." 

"A sprinkle of hope."

"Yes, a sprinkle of hope."

"The hope is not on fire."

"No, no, no. The hope is on fire."

"The amazing hope."

"Yes, the amazing hope.. is on fire!"

"An amazing sprinkle of hope is on fire."

We walked up the stairs and into the lounge. We sat on the sofa hugging and crying, Louise is  very understanding and loyal.

"Louise?" I ask

"Dan?" 

"Did you get any more details on the earthquake?"

"Oh Dan, If there is no Phil anywhere, it must mean that he's under a building or large piece of debris. So, we will probably get that info in a month or so."

"LOUISE. I'M NOT GOING TO WAIT A FLIPPING MONTH, HE'S MY BEST FRIEND AND I'LL KILL MYSELF IF I HAVE TO!"

"Dan, No! Please don't. The world needs you, YouTube needs you... Please... Please."

Louise broke down on the sofa, sobbing on her hands mentioning how much she would miss me... I wrapped my arms around her. I love her. I love her as a friend. I didn't want her to suffer. I know that she needed me.

"Chris and PJ want to come over tomorrow... They need you. I need you."

"I know you do, Louise... I'm going to fight through the pain."

"Oh, Dan."

We hugged and hugged and hugged and hugged, then cried and cried and cried and cried. It was 9:30PM, but I was exhausted and drifted off to dreamland on the sofa. I could feel a soft blanket covering my stomach. I could feel my tears stinging the cushion, I was so aware how of how precious life was.