Stuff I don't like

mind shit

here's just a couple of things on my mind
So I used to play the cello but I was really bad, and I already play the ukulele a bit so I'm really thinking of switching. My mom is totally on board and now she wants me to learn the guitar and shit. But honestly tho I feel kinda guilty quitting the cello just because I started off with it, so ya.
oh and also I'm having some weird feelings about this person. I don't know if I like like them or not. Tbh we're really close friends and I've always had a semi crush on them in a way, but more of a friend crush.
sometimes I also wonder if people think I'm actually good at stuff or if they're just saying that.
Also I'm friends with this 9 year old who is super sweet don't get me wrong, but she is also kinda annoying. It's like she tries to be like everyone in these different types of fandoms which she doesn't even know about.
Also is it bad that I have some serious problems with some fandoms? Like it's not always the people but just the fandom itself and when someone says something really related to that fandom I just wanna fucking blow up.
Now I feel kind of bad liking Leafyishere because one of my friends who is extremely defensive about everything feminist n shit called me out for liking him and I was a "total disgrace" ...
Why is the bee movie a meme?

It's not like anyone cares...
~Lauren (• ε •)