Life & Feelings

But why?

*Courtney POV*

*3weeks later*everything is going real good...I'm happy..Mariah started back working n she been coming home at 3 in the morning...imma stop lyin right here...cuz everything I jus said was bullshit..I'm not happy honestly ever since our anniversary she been actin different n when she come home from work ha promise ring be off her finger...I understand some jobs make u take it off bu leave it at home or sumthin... Idk she been actin like real real funny..sometimes she wanna be under me then other times she don't wanna be under me...idk what I'm doing wrong...bu imma talk too ha when she come home. Oh yeah I ran into lulani at the mall again.. We was talking n she was telling me what's going on wid ha, n seems like she was going thru it bu I told ha dat imma always be here if she need someone to talk too so she gave me her new phone number n walked off...n every since den we been texting😌...its nun like dat we jus be chillin n talkin about everything. "Courtney?" Mariah called walking thru the door...oh yeah she stop calling me bae,baby etc. N I'm tired of ha always calling me by my first name😒 "in da living room" I said wid an slight attitude "what u doing?" she said kissing my cheek "nun jus on my phone & thinking" I said sitting up "what u thinking about?" She asked sitting next too me "the way u been actin lately" I said scratching my head "mm wym?" She said tryna play dumb "like coming home late asf,walking funny,smelling funny n other shit" I said straight up "girl u tripping" she said shaking ha head "nah mane...cuz I been holding all dis in fa tha last 3weeks bu ain't nun changed... So be real wid me...Wassup?" I asked looking at ha "baby...nothing" she said biting ha lip n climbing on top of me "fr...I'm not gone get mad if u jus tell me...bu if I gotta be asking imma get mad" I said looking in ha eyes "babe its nothing jus been stressed" she said kissing my neck "mane stop fr..I got another question" I said pushing ha back *smacks lips* "what" she said smacking ha lips n catching a attitude "u talking too ole dude?" I said looking in ha eyes, she didn't say nun she got quite "umm u gonna say sum" I said turning ha head towards me "as friends" she said lowly "have y'all fucked?" I asked being straight up...she got real quite n got off me n moved too the other small couch "what u moving fa?" I asked already knowing dat she cheating "don't get mad baby" she said with a cracking voice "don't get mad😅 u funny" I said wiping my face "ba-" "how many times y'all fucked" I asked cutting ha off "since I started coming home late" she said shaking n getting scared..all I could do is laugh "why u laughin?" She said scared "Manee...das crazy...come here baby" I said chuckling... I was about too play ha ass real quick.. Don't think I'm not mad cuz I am...I'm jus crazy asf😊 "um okay..can we talk about this?" She said sitting on my lap shaking "yeah sure" I said smiling "well after the anniversary he texted me n asked too met up...n u was out visiting ur mom so I said sure...n he started telling me how he want me n stuff then I told him no...bu he asked me too marry-" I started too laugh "hold tf on...he did...mane crazy thing is I have a weeding ring nd engagement ring rn being custom made fa u" I said chuckling n lifting ha off my lap "what did u say?" I asked pacing back n forth "well...I said I'll think about it...I mean I've been knowing him fa 2 years...he is my first love I jus-" *cuts ha off* "jus what...didnt want to break up wid me...I LEFT MY FUCKING FIRST LOVE FA U..THINKING LIFE ABOUT TOO GET BETTA...WTF MARIAH" I said slamming my hand on the table "I'm sorry" she said jumping "I DID SO MUCH SHIT FA U...U TELLING ME EVERYTHING U TOLD ME AT THE BEACH IS A LIE?....N WHEN WE TALKED ABOUT BABY'S ....OMG" I said getting pissed off "I'm so sorry bu I love him" she said crying "oh wow😂 so na u love him..mane dis shit crazy" I said laughin too myself "I never did stop loving him & jus calm down" she said sniffling n walking ova too me...she grabbed me n held me...I pushed ha back on the couch "DONT FUCKIN TOUCH ME" I said yellin at ha "ur fucking crazy...u was jus laughin na yo ass mad" she said looking at me crazy *starts crying* "WELL MAYBE I WOULDNT BE LIKE DIS IF U WOULDVE NEVER DID DIS SHIT...LIKE I TOLD YO ASS IF U WAS TOO LEAVE ME I WOULD GO CRAZY" I said crying harder n falling on my knees "okay okay I understand jus calm down she said walking over too me..."U FUCKING BITCH...SO U THINK U CAN JUS UP N LEAVE ME LIKE EVERYTHING IS FINE" I said grabbing ha by ha neck n slamming ha on the couch "stop ur hurting me" she said trying too push me off of her