Thinking of Him (Discontinued)

Lost in Thought

Aphmau POV

Kawaii~Chan ran in screaming. I looked at her confused before she ran over and showed me a picture of Travis holding Katelyn. I was shocked at first but soon started fangirling along with her. Aaron grabbed me and kissed me. I was shocked and felt my face heating up. he looked at me and smiled. "Calm down babe. They're not even here yet." My eyes must have lit up when I thought of when they came back because Aaron burst out laughing and set me down. Kawaii~Chan and I laid on our stomachs and faced the door waiting for them to come back.

Travis POV

I gazed at the sunset over the ocean. It was beautiful, but not as beautiful as my blueberry in my arms. I looked down to find her asleep. She seemed so delicate in my arms like glass. It felt like she could shatter any moment. Even though I knew she could punch me a mile away if she tried. I picked her up and carried her back to the hotel. When we got back I saw Aphmau and Kawaii~Chan at the door waiting. Their eyes were sparkling and they started high pitch screaming. I jumped back in shock and dropped Katelyn. She fell to the floor with a loud thud and woke up with a small scream. Once she recovered enough to know what was going on she glared at me hatred in her eyes. "Thanks a lot Travis." I stepped back. The anger in her voice pierced my heart. "K-Katelyn I'm-" She cut me off with another sharp glare. Even Kawaii~Chan and Aphmau were silent as she walked upstairs and slammed the door shut behind her.

Aphmau POV

I was shocked about how Katelyn reacted. It wasn't like her. I turned to Aaron who was also shocked and he put my hand in his and we climbed the stairs and knocked on her door. "Go away!" She yelled when we knocked. I softly said "Katelyn." And she said "What do you want Aph." I tried to turn the knob but it was locked. I sighed deciding she needed her space. I lightly tugged Aaron's hand and we started to walk back downstairs.

**Quick Note: The next scene is a mental breakdown so if you don't like that then just skip it**

Katelyn POV

I sighed and put my head in my hands. I knew Aphmau had left. I felt bad about how I reacted. I wasn't his fault. I wasn't even mad about him dropping me. I just...just missed Jeffery. I needed to be alone. And I know that Travis wouldn't let me be. So I needed to force it. I know it wasn't right to make him feel like he did something wrong but...I sighed again and took out my phone. I already had 3 messages from Travis, 2 from Aphmau, and 5 from Kawaii~Chan. I smiled knowing that they cared about me. But I didn't respond. I laid on my bed staring at the ceiling and thought about Jeffery. I almost felt guilty about how every time I was alone I thought of him. Even though you could say Travis and I were dating. My vision started to blur and I realized I was crying. I didn't stop myself and let the tears slide down my face and onto the bed. I let my mind flow and didn't hold back any thoughts. I thought about his sparkling eyes, his dark hair, his caring smile. The way he held me in high school, our first kiss, our first dance. I smiled slightly at the thought of him. I felt warm and safe...and happy. Then I felt my mind shatter. He was everything I could ever want. He loved me as much as I loved him. And I...I left him. The tears were coming faster now. Flowing down my face and into my hands. I covered my face to try to muffle my sobs. My phone lit up. Another message from Travis. They were worried...He was worried. My hands shook as I tried to reply that I was fine...I was fine. That thought echoed in my head as I tried to convince myself that I was fine...I was fine. In the end I just went to my home screen still not responding. And I saw the picture of me and Jeffery. I smiled at the memory. We took it the day we started dating in high school. Since then he's gotten married, had a kid, divorced. I got up and started pacing tears still streaming down my face. My chest was too tight when I tried to breathe and I felt myself gasping for air with every breath. I started gripping my arms tight and clawing myself with my nails. Blood started to trickle from my arm but I didn't care. I was whispering to myself "I'm fine...You're fine... Everything's fine..." I was still pacing and ignored any message that came from my phone and any knock from the door. I scratched my arm drawing more blood. I punched the wall in frustration and anger...at mainly myself. That caused a lot of people trying to contact me but I still ignored it. I sighed was this trying to get over love? I ended up on my phone and started texting Jeffery.

"Hey, you there?"

"Yea, what's up?"

"Just missing you."

"Same. So What are you doing?"

"Nothing really. "

"Want to call?"

"Sure."

I called Jeffery and we talked for about an hour. It helped...a lot. I cleaned up the blood and got a long sleeve shirt on to cover up the cuts and was about to go out when...