Zayn’s POV:
“I told you not to go in there!” Tanner scolds me outside of the dorm room and I can’t even explain how angry I am.
“Shut up!” I shout back and she begins to talk but stays quiet.
“I told you to leave her alone Zayn – she’s happy.” She stares at me and I don’t really have anything left to say to her just Carter; I want to scream at her for choosing clearly but I also want to hug her and kiss her and lay next to her in her small bed and have her tell me stupid jokes and be weird next to me while I kiss her cheek.
“I can’t leave her alone”
“Why?”
“I have never wanted anyone this bad before! I don’t what’s wrong with me” I look around the dorm for an escape but mostly I just want to go back to sleep and never talk to anyone again.
Especially Carter.
“It’s okay everything will be okay.” Tanner tries to reassure me by taking my arm with hers and walking us away from the dorm.
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Carter’s POV:
“That was um…” I was tired of the awkward exchange of no contact me and Niall were going through and I wanted him to just freaking say something.
“Aren’t you going to apologize?”
“Excuse you?”
“You said you would stay away from Zayn and here he is at your dorm room! What is that supposed to make me think?”
“Nothing? You should clearly see he came here on his own. We were in the middle of something why would I call Zayn?”
Cancer – that’s all I’m asking.
“Seriously, you’re being serious?”
“Yes I’m being serious you are being such a jerk!” I shift away from him and continue to stare at him – appalled.
“Just apologize and we can move on”
“I guess were not moving on then, get out”
I point towards the door and stare at him until he sighs and leaves the room. I sit still on my bed and think about Zayn and how that – that moment before was the last time I’ll be even close to speaking to him and I blew it by not talking at all.
Instead of further torturing myself with the subject I lay down in my soft bed sheets and fall asleep attempting to escape the harsh reality that is my life.
Zayn’s POV:
“Holy shit I’m so fucking drunk!” I shout and Tanner laughs as the loud music blares around us.
“Very nice!” she shouts back attempting to muffle the loudness.
“I am so screwed for tomorrow!” I shout again and Tanner laughs harder.
“Tomorrow’s only Tuesday” she laughs and I stare around the dim club where bodies cling to each other and hold small glasses.
“Tanner…shit Tanner – that’s Carter” I point towards a petite red head that is turned around and Tanner laughs.
“That isn’t Carter, Zayn” she speaks slowly and then laughs a little more.
“It looks like her” I slur and she laughs more.
“You’re crazy Zayn” she hands me the bottle and stands up leaving me alone and heading to the bathroom. I stare around at all the hopeless girls and find myself comparing every single one to Carter. I can’t stop thinking about her. I pull out my phone and dial the number I deleted for my own sake and wait for her to answer.
