We were getting back on tour and doing interviews and promo for the album. When we finally got a moment to rest in the hotel, Louis came to my room to talk.
- What do you want to talk about? - I asked him
Louis didnt say a word. He only went directly to me and kissed me. I was missing so much his amazing kisses but after I got apart from him, i knew it wasnt right...
- We cant do this anymore Louis
- Why not? we love each other right?
I stayed quiet...
- Do you still love me Harry?
- I dont know - I said looking away
I was bad at lying, i actually love him with all my life.
- Look me in the face and tell me that you dont love me
The tears started streaming down my face when i looked directly into those eyes.
- I cant...
- Because you know you love me
- I do love you Louis
- Then, explain, why the fuck we cant be together? we have go through enough bull shit to now you just give up on us
- I want you to be happy, and you are not going to be happy with me
- Who are you to decide whats my happiness?
- Your family are never going to accept our relationship, they are going to make your life a total hell
- Mine? our yours? you are just a coward!
- Louis, please, you got to understand
- I got nothing to understand, i thought you love me enough to not give up, i guess i was wrong,...
I wanted to say more but... we said it all.. he left the room, and in the following weeks, he was very distance with me, avoiding looking or talking to me.
In those following weeks also, i had to stand to see hundreds of HQ pictures of Louis and his beard.
I was very depressed, when we were travelling to other countries, i would go to gay bars, get drunk and hook up with random guys, i was a total a rebel and didnt care a thing about it.
Louis didnt give up on me though... he tried hard to win me back. He even jerked a plant during an interview to get my attention, i saw it but decided to ignore him. It was breaking my heart but i had to let him go.
ESTÁS LEYENDO
The Harry Diaries ( A Larry Stylinson Story )
FanfictionHarry Styles shares his story while being in the band One Direction and the struggles he went throught while living the dream and hiding his true sexual orientation and his love for his bandmate, Louis Tomlinson.
