Home Alone.

aNgEl // tHe wEeKeNd

From the moment you see someone that you truly want to be in a relationship with, something inside you tells you that they are special.

You can look at all the people in the cafeteria. All the people at your workplace. But that one person will be set apart from all of the rest.

When I saw that sweet girl on my first day at Hancock, she appeared to be happy and bouncing around in a bright yellow Pikachu jacket. I'll never forget that because I made sure to notice her every single day.

Towards the end of the semester, the sweet girl actually went out of her way to figure out just who I was.

We shared a mutual friend and talked just once before she asked our mutual friend how to find me on Snapchat.

It was the first time that any girl I was interested in actually went out of their way to find me, even though I'd put money on the table that she was quite aware that I was into her.

And she Snapchatted me that very night, quite excited to talk to me. She even dumped her boyfriend at the time, just because she had a chance at being with me.

And then time told all. Not even a week later, I stopped talking to her. I got the hickies and she was heartbroken because what she saw on the outside had broken, out of greed.

She saw the boy that didn't curse, got uncomfortable when talking about sex, was a member of "the Jesus Club", and was ultimately respectful towards all women, crumble.

It isn't to say that this boy had never existed. I mean to say that greed had murdered him.

After having the one girl that I had truly wanted to be with over the course of 5 months, I still had to have more.

Two hot make-out sessions and even a few times where I blew the sweet girl off for another, the sweet girl actually said yes to being my girlfriend. And let me tell you why.

She saw potential in me to become that man that she wanted. The man that she believed she had.

Ever since she had first laid her beautiful emerald eyes upon me, she had seen something special. And she did everything in her power to not let go of that.

We were together for a year and I did so many terrible things to her but losing her is what made me truly notice that I had allowed my good traits to die when we had started talking.

I still see an angel when I look at her. She's done no wrong by me and while I've craved her attention after I lost her and didn't receive it, I've also become more independent and strived to push myself to become even better than the fellow that she had wanted to fall in love with.

I can finally say that I love myself because through all of this, I've actually come a long way from where I was, at the beginning of the summer. I'm not perfect and neither are any of you but I'm on my way to greatness and nothing can stop me at this point.

I am going to ensure that the next girl will be practically dating a completely different man than I was altogether because now, I am able to notice and reflect on all of my mistakes and do everything in my power to not let it happen again.

As for the sweet girl, we have similar wishes for each other: we hope that the other finds someone to love. And time may only tell if each other is that someone.

Greed can take over a heart and kill all good qualities about a man. Look at Howard Hughes (The Aviator) and Oscar (Shark Tale). And if greed can kill your heart, it has the ability to kill others, just as easily.

"I'm not the sweet girl in the Pikachu jacket anymore and you're not the guy that I ever thought that you would be."

Don't let greed tarnish what could be the best thing to ever happen to you. Overcome it and love others, as they deserve to be loved and you too, will most likely receive the same amount of love. And if you do not,

I hope you find somebody.