My Keeper "Luke Hemmings"

Chapter 14- Miss you more

***Luke's pov***

I'm home but home doesn't feel like home without her for some reason.

"Hey how'd it go?"

I was in a daze.

I didn't answer and sat down next to Calum on the messy couch.

Why was he here?

I wanted to be next to Elaine instead.

"Luke.."

I didn't want to talk. I felt angry. Frustrated and out of control.

I got up and stood right in front of the white wall. And punched a hole right through it.

I felt a little better.

"Shit man you can't just hit the wall!"

I walked to my restroom and locked the door.

I looked at my reflection. The bruises and memories on my neck. I see the razor and thought maybe that'd make me feel better..

I held it up to my wrist and right when I was about to start, I see the ring.

Her ring.

I felt stupid and weak. I threw the razor and sang down on the floor.

And for the first time in a long time, I cried.

Softly so Calum wouldn't hear.

Maybe lane is out there somewhere crying to.

If she was here I'd hold her and she'd hold me.

She was all i needed. And now she's gone.

"hey Luke are you alright.."

"Um..yea just go," I say trying not to sound funny.

"I know shit hurts..we can deal with it tomorrow..you should get some sleep"

Sleep? How could I sleep without her in my arms.

Even thought it was only a week it felt like longer.

I fell in love with her. I fell hard.

Getting up and seeing myself again, I see a lonely and weak person that I thought I'd never be.

What did she do to me?

I walk out of the restroom and to my room. I take off my shirt and jeans and get comfortable in bed.

I imagine her next to me and how it was back there.

One night were sleeping in each other's arms and it's perfect and the next night I'm lonely.

We're lonely.

Maybe she's fine wherever she was. Maybe she didn't miss me at all.

Why does it have to be like this. Why did she have to be so beautiful and great.

I thought going to that camp was a bad idea, but I know now that it was the best decision I ever made.

Will I see Elaine again? Yes.

How do I know for sure?

I just do.