I Have To Look Up Just To See Hell

Disengaged

Chapter 2 - Disengaged

{Shannon POV}

I let my face fall into my hands…I was exhausted! I felt like I’d been on ‘auto-pilot’ the past few days… disengaged as it were. I needed a break…correction! I needed a nap! I walked over to Marilyn and kissed him sweetly.

“I need to go lie down for a bit…make sure she’s okay.” He nodded, smiling. I smiled and kissed him again.

I made my way up to our room and fell back onto the bed. Sleep found me the second I closed my eyes…

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{Marilyn POV}

Shannon had been asleep for about an hour and a half. I’d yet to tell her about the upcoming shows the band and I were doing. I smiled a little. They were in Australia… Shan would be right at home again…well…she was from there. ‘Oh, shut-up Brian!’ I thought to myself as I sat up and looked across the room at my daughter playing with her coloured blocks.

I sighed. “Your mummy might be slightly mad at me for not telling her sooner…but she wants to go home and see her mum and sisters…your aunts…she can show you off a little…” I shook my head at my own ramblings, and smiled at the amused expression on my daughters face. She understood more than people realised. I made a show of trying to make my next sentence our little secret, making her giggle. “If you don’t cry…I won’t cry…deal?” Abigail nodded and smiled. As she turned to go back to playing, she tripped and fell, her head hitting the side of the play pen… tears welled in her tiny eyes instantly…and then the wailing began. Marilyn scooped her up into his arms, cooing to her softly as he made sure she was okay. As she finally quieted down, Marilyn looked up and saw a sleepy looking Shan halfway down the stairs. “Well fuck.”

“She okay?” Shannon asked me as she stifled a yawn.

“Yeah, just had a little tumble is all.” I smiled as Shannon took Abigail from me.

“Aww, did we have a fall?” Shannon cooed softly as Abigail nodded and sniffled. “Aww…” she hugged her closer and smiled a little at me, reaching for the tissues. “Let’s dry those pretty little eyes…” she leant back slightly and let Abgail dry her eyes before holding the tissue to her nose. “Blow.” I smirked and shook my head. Before we’d had Abigail, Shannon would’ve found this funny too. “Good girl!” Shannon smiled and tapped Abigail’s nose, making her giggle.

“Sorry we woke you…” I smiled sheepishly.

“Meh, it’s fine.” She smiled up at me as Abigail yawned and lay her head on Shannon’s shoulder. “Little miss is tired… I’ll go lay her down and then come back.”

I kissed both their foreheads before Shan went carefully up the stairs, Abigail drifting further into sleep with each step up.

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{Shannon POV}

I closed the door silently and tip-toed down the stairs back to Marilyn. I found him on the couch and collapsed down next to him, snuggling into his chest as he wrapped his arms about me. “She’s sound asleep…” I sighed as I felt him his my hair.

“I need to tell you something.” He began.

“Oh, don’t start it like that…do you know what that sentence does to people’s minds?” I groaned and then laughed as he tickled me. “S- stop!” I laughed.

“Shh!” he teased. “You’ll wake Abigail!” he smirked as I turned my head to look at him.

“You look like you’re about to get in trouble…” I raised an eyebrow at him. “What’ve you done?”

“Nothing as bad as what I want to do to you now she’s asleep upstairs.” He growled quietly into my ear and I shuddered lightly.

I felt my cheeks grow warm and gave him a playful shove. “Don’t change the subject.”

“Later then…” he smirked. His smile fell a little as he spoke again. “We have a couple of shows to do…” he paused and I nodded, not sure why he was worried. “In a week…and you’re coming…”

Ah, there it was. I narrowed my eyes slightly. “That’s quite the ultimatum…so, what’s the good news?”

“The shows are in Australia…” he didn’t finish his sentence….mainly because I’d jumped on him, my legs straddling him kissed the living daylights out of Marilyn. He laughed lightly. “I take it you’re not mad at me then?” he asked, amused by my reaction.

“No,” I smirked. “I’m going home…and you and Abigail are going to be there. I can’t be mad about that.” I paused, noticing that his shirt was undone…how had I missed that. “Now…what was it you wanted to do to me?”

His arms wrapped around my waist, preventing any form of escape. “Wait and see…”

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I know it's only short, and I apologise...but I'm down in the dumps right now, but still wanted to update this for you.

Much love,

Shan~Leigh