I can't do this anymore. What is the point. Nobody loves me and I always knew I was worth nothing.This life is to hard and I will never be free. I will never be free from him. I run and run but he always finds me. Hide and hide but he always finds me. I will never be safe. And I will never be loved. Every I worked for will go down the drain. Nothing seems to matter. And nobody seems to matter anymore. I'm at a breaking point and I can't decide which way I should go. On one side I could just let my life be over with and not be on Earth anymore. Or I could get abused everyday so nobody gets hurts except me. Life is just a game and I'm stuck in the middle of it.
I had to do this. To protect the people I care about and love. I pick up my phone and go through my contacts. Then I found the name I never thought I would ever see again...Jake. But I had to do this and get it over with. So I texted him before sent the message I retread it:
JAKE, I WILL GO WITH YOU UNDER ONE CONDITION. THAT CONDITION IS YOU CAN NOT COME BACK AND HARM MY FAMILY, FRIENDS, AND TRISTEN. THAT IS THE ONLY CONDITION I HAVE AND IF YOU ACCEPT THIS CONDITION THEN I AM YOURS. ALOS MEET ME TONIGHT AT 10 BY THE OLD OAK TREE.
-KYNDALL
I can't believe I'm going to do this. Just give myself up to him. But I got to do it. No matter how hard I was trying not to cry a tear always escaped from my eyes. But I couldn't show weakness. Not towards Jake and not towards anyone. I just really hope this is the right thing to do. How was I supposed to tell Tristen. There would be no easy way to tell him. So I thought the best explanation would be not to tell him. I mean besides he doesn't care. He doesn't care about me at all. He just said all those things yesterday so I would listen to him. We'll I listened Tristen and I listened hard. Nothing good came from meeting you and nothing good will ever come from meeting you. I gotta leave you behind and everybody else. I'm just not worth it anymore and I realize that. I'm sorry but I guess Jake wins and I can't do anything about it.
9:30
I guess this will be the last minutes I have in this house. I have nothing to say to anyone except Tristen and explain everything to him but I can't. No matter how hard I try I will never come to the conclusion that I may actually like him. But nothing matters anymore and I have to face the future. The future that I have to spend with Jake. I don't think I can go through the pain of leaving this place. But nobody needs to get hurt because of me. I'll leave something to explain my story to everybody. No questions they will have their answers on a piece of papers the front door. And nobody will ever come looking for me. We'll I guess it is time to go. Goodbye life I will certainly miss you.
Tristen's POV:
Where could she be. I'm have spent all day looking for and I haven't even noticed a trace of her. Not an inch or centimeter. Whatever is happening between her and I needs answers and she has to give them to me. But I have looked everywhere for and I can't seem to find her. Back to the starting blocking. Walking back to her home I noticed it was extremely quiet and then I began to run. What if she has already left and I didn't even know. I made it to the front door and noticed a piece of paper on the door. My jaw dropped as I read the words:
TO WHOEVER IS READING THIS. I WOULD LIKE YOU TO KNOW I AM GIVING MYSELF TO JAKE AND NOBODY SHOULD COME LOOKING FOR ME. JUST PLEASE NOTE THAT THE ONLY REASON I AM DOING THIS IS SO NOBODY WILL GET HURT. ESPECIALLY YOU TRISTEN. I'M SORRY BUT I JUST COULDN'T ANSWER THE QUESTIONS YOU WERE GOING TO ASK, AND THE ANSWER TO YOUR QUESTION...WELL I GUESS WE WILL NEVER KNOW THE ANSWER TO YOUR QUESTION I GUESS. BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR YOUR SAFTY. I'M SO SORRY ABOUT ALL OF THIS BUT I HAVE TO GO.
-KYNDALL
She could not have done this. She can't do this not to me. The question is how can I stop her. She Is making the hugest mistake of her life. Why is she risking her life just to protect other people like me. Especially me, there is not point in protecting me. I have to find her but I don't know where to look. It's an abandoned house that looks like nobody lives her. Woods surround this house everywhere. There is no way I could find her before She gives herself away. She is going to get abused worse than when she was in the hospital. I just can't let her throw her life away like this.
Four ways to go in these woods it which one is the right one. Searching in every direction for her and I can't even find a trace of her. This is just great how can I find her anymore. I did the only thing I could do and that is I ran in a direction I thought was best. Now I am just hoping that it is the correct decision. Movement in the woods always creeps me out and I feel like turning around. But I can't turn around not until I find Kyndall. There is no way in hell that I am letting her leave with him. The note still drives chills to my brain. How could she just give herself up like that. She is giving up her life just to keep me safe. If anything she is the one who needs to be kept safe. As I was thinking I realized I was in an opening. An opening with a beautiful waterfall. I felt like I have seen this pine before or at least it looked familiar. Out of the corner of my I saw somebody, hopefully it was Kyndall. But it wasn't it was some guy. Yelled at him to get his attention and he just ran away. But something stopped me in my tracks. "Tristan?" That voice it sounded so familiar. I turned around and saw....Kyndall. Oh thanks it was Kyndall. I finally found her. "What are you doing here?" I was shocked. I wasn't expecting that sort of reaction. "Hello? Earth to Tristan. Are you just going to stand there or are you going to answer my question?" Are you kidding me. This is the response I get from her.
"Why the hell would you do that? Just leave to a guy who abused you." I looked at her with concern in my eyes. "Why Kyndall? Just answer why you did that?" I'm waiting for her to respond. Then she finally sighed and began talking.
"Look Tristan I just didn't want you to get hurt, okay?"
"I never get hurt. The only time I was hurt is when I found that note on your door and it said that you were going to go with him. That is the only time I was hurt and it was because I thought you left me."
"Tristan the only reason I was doing that is to protect you. I just couldn't image you getting hurt because of me. I'm sorry but it was the online thing I could do to protect you. I could get used to the abusing but I could get used to you getting hurt all the time. My future is volleyball but thing is now that I don't know what my future is anymore. When you told me you liked me I didn't know what to say. Because nobody has ever liked me before except Jake. And I thought I was protecting myself from getting abused again from another guy. And that other guy would have been you. I was scared that you would have abused me like Jake abused me. So you see Tristan I was protecting you from well me. I have a load of baggage that only I can carry and nobody can help me through it. Not even Tristan." She started to cry and the only thing I could do was hold her in my arms. "I'm so sorry Tristan I didn't mean for any of this to happen. I just thought it was the best decision for both us. We both come from didn't worlds and I thought it wasn't going to work. But now I realize I don't care anymore. I really dint care if we come from different worlds. I really hope that offer you made earlier about us is still on the table. If you so I would like to take it. But you should know that I have a lot of baggage and I do t expect you to help me but help me heal all the wounds that I have." She kept crying and I held her tighter. Yeah that offer was still on the table. And it would never go away.
"Kyndall.." I lifted her chin so our eyes met. "Of course that offer is still on the table." I looked at her in the eyes and kissed her. Nothing holding me back I kissed her with everything. Then I broke the kiss apart and kept looking In her eyes. "Come on Kyndall, let's get you home."
