I actually thought. Wow I actually thought he liked me. Good things only last for a short time period I guess. To many memories in a day. Running was my only option. If he actually cared he would run after me but it turns out he doesn't. I am out here in the freezing cold by myself. Nobody here to help or anything. What's the point for me to develop feelings for Tristen anymore.
Leaving was hard but it was worth it. I can't stand being lied to. So I guess my heart will never be healed. "Kyndall wait let me explain!" God Tristen why does he have to be here right now.
"Tristen there is nothing to explain. I get it okay. This thing between us will never be brought up again. We will both go back to our normal lives. That way we wont be reminded about what happened tonight. So there is nothing to explain. I'm sorry Tristen but I have to go." I turn around and started walking away.
"Kyndall at least take my jacket its freezing. Let me give you a ride home to." I stopped in my tracks and turned my head towards him. He smiled at me. So I walked over to him and grabbed his jacket and walked over to his car. He tried to put his arm around me but I increased the space between us. "Come on Kyndall you're freezing." With that I turned around and started walking home in the snow. "Kyndall wait!"
"Goodbye Tristen." and I kept walking away from him. The memories we had and will never see again. I mean it was freezing outside so I just put on his jacket to stay warm. I mean I would give it back to him tomorrow. No matter how hard it is going to be. Life happens this way and I gotta let it be this way. The only way to forget is to move on. And that is what I gotta do. I gotta move on. Away from Tristen and away from everything. I have no family. Nobody that matters to me. I'm alone in this world and I will always be alone.
If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride
and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart (we just grew apart)
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not (believe me or not)
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away
