Die For Something Beautiful

The Dreadful Day

I wake up early in the morning with a huge headache and I walk downstairs to get myself orange juice and pills. I pour myself a cup and take two pills washing it down with orange juice. I place the cup in the sink and walk back to my room falling into my bed. I rub my cheek as it stings in pain I walk to my bathroom and look at myself in the mirror to my horror I see a huge bruise on my cheekbone. I immediately run to my phone texting Arabella and Lila. I put my makeup on trying my best to cover up my cheek and I throw on a light blue dress and my necklace. I look at myself in the mirror but the bruise would will show through my makeup I brush my hair and use it to my advantage to cover it. I take my clothes from last night and walk downstairs throwing them into the washing machine and then walk into the kitchen getting ice from the freezer placing it on my face. The girls come and they see my face and gasp in shock.

"Scar that's really bad what are you going to tell the guys?" Arabella asks

"Tell the guys what sweetheart?" Sebastian smiles then slowly fading away as he sees my face. "Sweetheart what happened? Are you okay who did this?!"

"I'm fine bub it only stings a little but I'll be okay" I smile as he softly touches my face.

"No you are clearly not okay! There is a huge bruise on your face how did this happen?"

I take a deep breath and close my eyes for a second as I build up the courage to tell him.

"Well Sam and I were both drunk and I was trying to take him to the bathroom and he got upset for some reason and he accidentally hit me." I sigh out with my eyes still closed.

"Sam did what?!" I open my eyes to see Remington and Emerson standing behind Sebastian. Their eyes filled with fury as they see the bruise on my cheek. Emerson quickly turns around and heads upstairs. I turn to Arabella and Lila with fear in all our faces. I hear yelling and things being thrown and we all quickly run upstairs. I run to Sam's room to see Emerson attacking him, Sebastian and Remington quickly separate them as Emerson yells at Sam.

"How dare you to ever lay a hand on a woman. I could give two shits if you were drunk you are no man if you think you can do that to your best friend you asshole! You disgust me you fucking idiot look what you did to her!"

Sam runs to me and tears quickly fill his eyes as he hugs my waist.

"Scar I'm so sorry. I hate myself so much for doing this to you. You are the last person I would ever want to hurt I fucking love you Scar! I am so in love with you and I'm so sorry!" He cries. The guys quickly take Emerson out of the room as he tries to attack him again. I'm left speechless and shocked. Did he really just say that he is in love with me?

"Scar hear me out please. I know this is a bad time but I really am in love with you!"

"No no no I'm sorry I can't do this right now" I stutter out as I release myself from him and run out into my backyard. I sit on one of the chairs as I place my face in my hands. I take a deep breathe as everything is running through my head. Sam just said he's in love with me even though he has  Chelsea and Emerson is understandingly furious at Sam. My head is spinning and I'm just so confused. I try to figure out how I'm feeling but I can't put words together correctly to do so. The only word I can use is confusion. I don't feel the same way about him. Yes I love him as my best friend but I don't see anything more than just keeping him as my best friend. I think about why I got so upset when I saw him with Chelsea how he had his arms wrapped around her and how close he was to her. Before I met the band he use to do that with me when I couldn't sleep and maybe I just got upset he would do that with her because that was our thing. I sigh and and realize that I did just get friend jealously and Sam will remain my best friend. I stand up and decide the best thing to do right now is to get out of the house away from all this. I walk back inside and begin to walk upstairs as I hear mumbling. I listen and it's the guys calming Emerson down as Arabella and Lila calm Sam down. I walk into my room and lay on my bed facing the ceiling taking a deep breathe as I shut my eyes when I hear someone walking in. I don't bother to open my eyes or ask who because they immediately walk back out. I get up grab my purse, phone, and journal and I walk in my bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror and reach for my concealer trying to cover my bruise a bit more. I put a little more powder and although its still showing through it helped a little. I sigh and walk out of my bathroom and grab my sunglasses as I walk out my room down the stairs and into the living room where I see Remington in the kitchen grabbing a glass.

"Where you going babe?"

"I need to get out of this house boo I'm gonna be out for a little while need anything?" I sigh

"I'm good but just be careful okay?" He smiles giving me a warm hug.

"Will do" I softly whisper as he lets me go. I grab my keys and head out the door unlocking my car. I open the door sitting in my seat as I sigh heavily. I feel my eyes starting to water and I quickly blink to stop myself I plug my phone into the aux cord and my phone starts to play put your head on my shoulder by Paul Anka and I start the car driving off. I drive into the freeway heading to Santa Monica Beach and my phone begins to ring I look down and see that Lila is calling me. I answer and put it on speaker.

"Girl where did you go?"

"I needed to get out the house for a while I need time to think about all this. I won't be long so don't worry." I sigh

"Okay well if you need me just call and I'll head over there"

"Alright talk to you later" I smile as I hang up the call. I continue my drive on as my mind wanders with thoughts of what happened last night.
I can't believe Sam would ever be capable of doing something like that to me. I thought he was my best friend and if he says that's he's in love with me why would he do that. He promised he would never do anything to hurt me but he did and in the worst case scenario possible. My heads in the clouds and I mean that in the worse way possible. My thoughts seem to hover over my mind I didn't seem too notice I almost pass my exit in which I sharply turn and drive down the street to park my car. In a sudden haze I seem to grab my purse and phone and walk towards the crowded beach I find an isolated area and I sit down to see the bright sunlight. I take out my journal and start to draw the scenery and the realization hits me. The reason I feel so confused is because Sam loves me but, I don't love him. I care about him and I do love him but not romantically or intimately. It isn't right to have someone feel a certain way when the other person feels a completely different feeling. I check my phone to see that what I felt like minutes had already been an hour and I put my journal away to get up and walk towards the pier. As I'm walking over I place my earphones in my ears and start to play some music I let my Spotify take control and  continue to walk. I see couples and families enjoying their day near the ocean and I simply smile because I aim to be as happy as they are  basking in the sun without worry. I slip my shoes on and walk on the boardwalk to find my favorite little ice cream place and I order a mango pineapple smoothie. I take a seat in one of their booths and begin to people watch as I drink my smoothie and my day slowly goes by before my eyes. I finally decide to go back home and face the madness and begin my walk to the car. I hope things will be okay by the time I come home.