Fire Will Burn (Sequel to Captivated by Love Alec/Magnus Mortal Instruments)

Five: Renya

The rest of the day passed by in a blur. I didn't care much about it. I don't even remember if Alec and I have a class together. I could care less. He is not the thing on my mind.

Well part of him is, but mostly its the fact that he doesn't want to be seen with me. Like I am something to be ashamed of. Maybe I am looking to far into this, maybe I just am to sensitive. Am I? I didn't know, I couldn't even think straight.

I moved my non-existent hair from my face as I walked through the halls. I had my headphones in my ear and I was drumming my fingers on my pants.

Settle down it'll all be clear. 

Yeah right. I rolled my eyes to the lyrics.

Don't pay no mind to the demons they fill you with fear.

I kept walking until I was by Izzy and Alec's car. Today sucked. I sat alone at lunch. I stared at Alec from across the café with him and his joc friends. I wish he didn't care what they thought. He introduced them to me last year.

Alec was making me so angry at him. What is so bad about me that he is so ashamed? I waited against the car for what seemed like forever. Eventually I got fed up so I just started to walk away.

Now theyre standing me up. I walked along the sidewalk that led to their house. I still didn't call it my house because it wasn't. I also just didn't feel very welcome. Especially if their father was going to be moving in. What did that mean for Alec and I?

As I was walking down the sidewalk, I started getting angrier every time I thought of Alec. I cant listen to lovey dovey music any more! I turned to my favorite music when I am furious.

Of Mice & Men started to play their music. The heavy guitar and drum pounded my ear drums. I felt at peace. My feet pounded on the ground as he sang.

I bet you’re sorry

You’ve lied to my face

All these words that I say, 

are the words I wanted to hear from you to me. 

When I walked closer to the road which the house was I could feel a different kind of pounding throughout my body. I took my headphones out and I could hear the heavy bass of someones music. I knew then and there that someone was throwing a party.

It was about sundown now. I guess I got lost somewhere along the way. My feet were sore and I was all sweaty. School let out at 3:30 and it is not 6:15.

I walked up the path to the house. The pounding of the music was from this home. As I got closer I could actually make out the words.

Molly, Molly, Molly.

I furrowed my eyebrows and walked into the house. Everywhere I looked there were kids from my school dancing on each other. Kids everywhere smoking and drinking. I guess that is why the song Molly was on.

I looked all around for Alec but I couldn't find him. My phone vibrated in my pocket. It was Alec calling me. I answered it as I put a hand over my other ear.

"HELLO?!" I yelled over the music.

"Why are you--"

"I CANT HEAR YOU, HOLD ON." I said pushing through the people as I walked up the stairs.

I walked into my room and shut the door behind me. This wasn't much better but at least I could hear him better.

"Hey, where are you Alec?" I asked.