Fire Will Burn (Sequel to Captivated by Love Alec/Magnus Mortal Instruments)

Twenty-one: Birthday boy

I realize that some of you will be upset about this. Some will hate me maybe some will understand. I had to do this. It was planned from day 1. My story had to have a twist. Had to be different. And it is. Thank you so much for staying with me while updating. Thank you so much for EVERY SINGLE VOTE!!!! Means the world to me. There are only a few chapters left!!! (And an epilouge!!!!!!)

~*4 YEARS LATER*~

~*ALEC POV*~

I had become used to this same old habit. It was natural to me. Wake up, feel numb, get yelled at. The words I hear are "Alec, he's been the same for 4 years. It is time to move on."

I can't do that. I can't just "move on". How do you do that when you love someone and you know they are your soul mate? You cannot just move on.

So I woke up every morning with the determination to make it through the day. I could do it. I could go a day without thinking of Magnus. I could go a day without wondering why he still is not awake. I could do it. I needed to.

I had went to many, many people to try and help me. Each of them said they had never seen a case like mine and they couldnt help me. I was broken and could not be fixed. That is what they all said. If professionals could not help me than what was I supposed to do?

Four years, today is four years that he has been gone. He is not sitting up and talking. He is not yelling at me and then kissing me. He is not doing anything. He is still the man that has my heart. My heart is still very heavy for him. I cannot live without him. He is my heart and my soul.

So as I wake up today, I am dressed my best. I have new determination to wake him up. There has to be something in him. There was miracles that happened. I didnt really believe in them. Today I would. Magnus belived in miracles. He believed in God. Something I never did. He once told me that God could do anything.

Well today I am going to believe in God today. I am going to know that God is going to help Magnus.

I am shaky, flowers in my hand, dressed in a tux. Magnus would have looked at me. He would have ran into me and kissed me sensless. He would have told me 'You dont have to do anything for me Alec. Your love is all I could ever want.' I know he would.

I walk to the front desk. Doris looks at me with a sad smile. "Hi pretty boy. Are you here to see him?" She asks me.

I nod. "Its his birhday Dor, I know he is going to wake up today." I tell her.

I have not been this happy in forever it seems like.

She gives me a sad smile again. "Just have an open mind Alec. It has been four years. The chances are very, very low." She says and sets a binder down on the counter.

I shrug and look at the tiles on the floor. I wonder how many people have stood here, being told this. Doris came all of the way from Russia for him. She was his doctor there when ever Magnus was sick. She now works here.

"I know Doris. I am told this everytime by you. I just wish you all would stop and just let me be happy." I snap and squeeze the flowers in my hands.

I want to throw them on the floor. I want to step on the pedals and make them powder. I want so much to put a hole through the wall. But I cant. I have to be strong for Magnus today.

I leave Doris at the front desk. I find the familiar wingof the hospital. The ICU. He has been moved around a few times, bed to bed. Its like the play house with him. 'Lets move Magnus Bane today. He looks better by the window.'

I scowl as I look at the nurses. They dont even check on him like they should. They need to leave! I enter his room and notice he has a single blue balloon. The balloon reads 'Happy Birthday'. I cannot look at him yet. I just stare at the balloon and wonder who has been here to see him? Doris?

I lay his flowers on the bed once I can see it. I look down and see his pale hands at his sides. Never moving. His eyes closed, hair trimmed, just shaved. Who has been here to see him?

I so wish he would open eyes so I can get lost in them. I wish he would sit up and talk with me. I lean down and put my ear to his chest. I hear the steady rhythm of his thumping in his chest. Strong and demanding attention.

I grip one of his hands in mine and look at his face, searching for some movement.

"Hey birthday boy. Your an old man now. 22 years old. You dont look a day over 18." I say as i run my fingers over his cold knuckles.

"It's time to wake up now."

Nothing, no movement. I hear footsteps at the door. I turn around and see Doris standing there.

"Katarjana has been here." She says.

"I knew somebody was. Where has she gone now?" I ask.

"She has went to tend to Holland at the hotel."

I nod and turn back to him. I wonder if he can hear me. I have so much to tell him. So many things I want to hear him respond to. I know he will not though.  He wont wake up.

~*MAGNUS POV*~

Alec is here! Alec im here. I want to scream! How can he not know that I am here! Why cant I just open my eyes!? Why is he always talking about me waking up? I am here. I am awake! I hear everything but he just keeps talking like I am not here!

Now he says I am a birthday boy! How old does that make me? I feel like ive been floating for forever. I feel like I have been in darkness forever. I dont like this feeling and it just keeps coming. Everytime I feel like I will be towards the light something tells me NO! STAY!

"Magnus, please wake up." I hear Alec say and then he starts crying.

I so badly wish I was out of the darkness so that I could run my fingers through his hair and tell him not to cry. I want to move my hand but it is to heavy. I cannot move it. I cant lift it, cant move my fingers. I can feel him leaning on me. I dont know what to do about it.

I cant move. I am motionless and I cannot speak. I just want to yell 'ALEC! IM HERE!'

~*ALEC POV*~

 I gripped his hands tight in mine. Imagining that he was behind me, stroking my back. He was behind me, loving me. He was awake and with me! We were celebrating his birthday but I know he wasnt awake.

I am about to drop his hand when I feel a twitch. Magnus lifts his finger and then it lays back down. HE MOVED!

"He moved his finger!" I yell and jump from the bed.

I run down the hall and look for Doris. She is another room with a patient and their family. I dont care! I know I felt his finger move! Right?

"Dori! DORIS! HE MOVED HIS FINGER!" I yell.

Doris stops speaking mid-sentance and she turns to me. She holds a finger up to the woman. She walks to me with a sad smile on her face. She puts a hand on my shoulder.

"Alec. You need to let him go. Katarjana has chosen to take him off of life support. They will begin the process of unplugging him soon." She says to me.

All I can think is why Magnus. Why do they have to give up on him? I havent. Why have they?