In The End

London

I got better. I finally came out of my room, I started eating and talking but only small talk.

I couldn't deal with any hate so I logged out of all my social media accounts, I don't want to get back into the state I was in.

Today is the first time I'm going out, to meet up with Blake, Reece and George. Reece has been great, better than anyone else but I got scared when I went to see him, in case James found out... about our secret.

"Are you sure you're going to be ok?" Mum asks me.

"Yes mum, I'll be fine." I say

"Meeting up with them again?" James says.

"Yes, I am, is that a problem with you?" I ask.

"No no, off you go and freak out when you get into the public." James says.

"Leave me alone James. Yeah I'm a freak but doesn't mean I freak out all the time!" I say storming off, slamming the front door behind me.

Breath Amelia, breath.

I walk to the train station as fast as I can. As I get closer I feel panicky.

Somethings going to go wrong. I'll miss my train. I'll make a fool of myself.

Remember to breathe Amelia, breathe. Everything will be fine.

I get on my train and I sit there in a world of my own.

"Amelia!" George calls.

"Hey." I say to the three boys.

"How are you?" Blake says.

"I'm good thanks." I say.

"All right let's give her some space." Reece says.

"I'm fine in fine." I say.

"Can I speak to you for a second?" Reece asks.

"Sure." I say as we walk to the side.

"So how are you doing?" Reece asks.

"I'm all right considering and James is still being as annoying as ever." I say.

Reece tenses up.

"Reece, I'm all right honestly." I say.

"I know I know. You just seem so fragile and I just want to hold you close to me and make things seem ok." Reece says getting closer to me.

"Reece." I say before Blake and George walk over.

"So what are we going to do today?" George says.

"I was thinking we could go on the London eye." Reece says.

"You expect me to go on that?" Blake says.

"Are you scared?" I say.

"You know I am." Blake scares.

"I'll hold your hand." I say.

"He'll be fine." Reece says.

I notice how he gets almost jealous like.

"So, let's go." George says.

We get on the tube to the embankment where the eye is.

"We can get fast pass or normal." I say.

"Fast pass we will get fast pass. I'm not waiting around getting myself in a state." Blake says causing us to laugh.

Reece buys the passes and we go que. It takes about 5 minutes before we get on.

We walk on and Blake sits down straight away.

"All scared." George says.

"Leave me alone." Blake says.

"Leave me alone." Reece imitates.

We all laugh. We take photos of the scenery including Big Ben.

"Is this nearly over?" Blake asks.

"Not long now." I say.

"Thank god for that." Blake say as.

Look how cute Reece looks looking out the window. I stare at Reece.

"Earth to Amelia."  George says.

"What sorry I was in my own world."  I say.

"We're getting off now." George says.

"Oh ok." I say.

We walk off and go out the exit. I start to feel panicky.

Calm down Amelia, stop panicking.

"Are you ok?" Reece asks.

"I I'm just a bit panicky." I say.

My breathing picks up.

"Amelia, what's wrong?" Blake asks.

"I I think... I'm having a a... panic attack." I say with pauses.

"Let's give her some space." Reece says.

"Reece." I say.

"What?" He says.

"Get get me out of here." I say.

"Reece, you'll be able to calm her down." George says with a smirk.

Fuck sakes.

We walk off to a bench and sit down.

"I'm sorry." I say.

"For what?!" Reece asks.

"For this, for ruining things." I say.

"You haven't ruined anything." Reece says.

My breathing slows down.

"You're so cute." I say.

"Well I know. How are you now." Reece asks.

"I'm good thank you." I say.

A/N - I hope you are liking the book so far I know I've said it before but the story line will get better I promise :)