Finnick and Katniss. Love is Warfare

Chapter 11

Katniss POV

I hear the deep peaceful breathing of the others, they are asleep at least and not trying to kill me. I can't quite fall asleep however, I'm not sure what it is but I just can't seem to drift off into sleep. I sit up slowly not wanting to alert anyone that I'm awake, not even Finnick who is sitting a few feet away, his trident balanced next to him, ready to be grabbed if needed while his fingers work away deftly on some rope. I sit enjoying the silence, listening to the others gentle breathing , the warm wind blowing gently on the leaves of the trees above us. I think back to home, back in district 12. I think about my family.
My sister.
My mother.
Gale.
Caitlin.

I feel my a drop of water roll down my cheek, I bring my arm up and wipe away the tear. I cant cry. I wont cry! I need to be strong. Strong for myself. Strong for my family. I need to get back home to them. My breath catches in my throat as the thought sinks in again. Only one person can survive and win. Only one. There is no way of Finnick and I being able to say together. If I want to get home to my family, I have to find a way to be the only one. But I love Finnick. I don't want to lose him. I want him to be my future, I want him to be my always. With our current situation though there isn't really any way for us to be together.

Unless we stay together in death.

I shake my head removing the morbid thought. I will not think like that! We will survive. We will be together. I shake my head again to make sure there are no more bad or weird thoughts. My shaking must of alerted Finnick as his head snaps round, his hand grasping his trident. His body relaxes as he realises it's just me and not someone trying to kill us. I smile at him, he places his trident down and holds a hand out to me. I stand up and make my way over to him trying to be as quiet as I can.

"Call yourself a hunter? Would help if you tried to be quiet." Finnick whispers as I sit next to him, I elbow him softly.

"I was trying!" I whisper back. He chuckles softly

"I don't know what's worse, that that was you actually trying? Or the fact you are as noisy as an elephant!" He laughs again

"Well you are the one that's engaged to the elephant." I smile up at him as he kisses my forehead gently igniting what feels like 800 fireworks to go off inside me. I look deep into his eyes. "I love you." I say smiling, just the thought of those words made me happy, there was no way I could kill him or stand and watch him be killed, I need to think of another way to save him, he's my future, I wanna grow old and raise a family with him! I love him! Suddenly we hear movement, Finnick's arms reaches out and grasps his trident. I turn slowly scared as to what I will come face to face with.