Finnick and Katniss. Love is Warfare

Chapter 6.

Katniss PoV

"Have you ever just thought about why this is life. About why we sit here and just accept that we have been thrown back in here after fighting in what was meant to be a one off thing. About why it's us and not all the past winners why it is just us. Ever wonder why people actually accept Snow's bullshit? I mean how has our country got into such a state that we are forced to send two children to fight to the death in an arena with around 10 other children. I mean what sort of childhood is that? Oh you just turned 12? Happy birthday now go try fight for your life with these other kids that are probably older, stronger and better trained than you, don't worry your whole family know there ain't no way in hell you are coming back alive. God if I ever have kids and Panem is still in this sort of state if they get reaped I will personally start a rebellion against it. Think about it. We could have lost most of our life right now. We spent our first 11 years with the constant worry for when we reach the right age that we could be chosen and trying to stay alive as it is even not in the games with the lack of food. But you wouldn't know what that is like because you are from 4 and can fish whenever you want and eat all the god damned fish you wish but in 12 it's rare to get a decent meal for your family unless there is someone who would do anything to get it. I mean without me to go an hunt how in the hell are my family going to have enough god damned fucking food. I have a sister, her cat and my mother back home. They almost lost me once. Just when I was fixing things with y mum I get shoved back in. And now neither my mum nor my sister know how to get food." I stand ranting to Finnick. It's now the morning. And I've had enough. "Wow you really have the worst luck. First you have Annie who goes mad and now you have me slowing slipping deeper and deeper into the madness that is my own mind. God why do you put up with me." I say before slumping into Finnick's eyes. I catch him rolling his eyes.

"As I pointed out last time you stopped to breath I think was an hour ago, you are making some very valid points. But we have been awake 18 hours straight and you keep saying you want to sleep and I love you and all but if you don't shut the hell up no one in this blasted arena is going to get any sleep." He says smiling at me. God who the fuck does that jack ass thinks he is.

"For your information all my points are valid. And I don't give a shit if no one can sleep. They need to hear my thoughts my thoughts matter very much to me and I want everyone to hear them." I say standing up and crossing my arms. "So if you would excuse me I'll go find a possum or something to rant to as you obviously do not care about my views or opinions." I start walking to the tree line. I keep walking for a while until I get to a small clearing. I sit on the ground and sulk. "Stupid arena with your stupid trees and stupid ugly possum things stupid stupid stupid Finnick he doesn't care. Stupid man. Stupid man with a gorgeous body. Stupid man with an incredibly attractive face. Ughhhhh stupid gorgeous man who asked me to marry him ugh he can go marry a possum." I scream in frustration. I sit up straight. "And now I may just have alerted everyone where I am. Great going Katniss. Well you know what... They can come find me and they can come kill me. I'm going to start a protest. I'm not going to fight. Ha lets see how Snow likes that. No fighting no point anymore if no one is going to fight."

"Oh there will always be fighting Katniss. Just not always in the way people expect." A voice says from behind me.

"It was the scream you found me from the scream." I say just sitting there. I feel someone sit beside me. I look and see Cashmere. Standing a few feet behind her is Peeta.

"It wasn't the scream. It was the pointless babbling." Peeta grunts.

"Although the the scream did help a little." Cashmere adds. "So what's up buttercup?" It's at this moment I can't take it anymore and burst into tears.

"Buttercup is the name of her sisters cat." Peeta says his voice soft and gentle like before when we were in the cave together when we really came together. "She hated that thing. But when you have the thought you may never see something again it can affect you badly." He says sitting on my other side.

"You remembered?" I say looking through my wet lashes at him.

"Yeah I guess I do." He says shrugging.

"He remembers!" I say to Cashmere.

"Yeah I guess he does." She says laughing.

"Ha fuck you Snow I knew my bread boy would come back to me!" I yell up to the sky where I'm sure the game makers are reporting back to Snow about my insanity.

"Your bread boy?" He asks me.

"I have a fish boy now." I say. Suddenly I feel something sharp pierce my back. I loose all sense of colour and direction. Next thing I know I hear screaming. High pitch screaming. I look around trying to see where it is coming from when Finnick bursts through the trees. I look to Cashmere and she is starting at me. Peeta is standing up again a worried look on his face yet all I hear is the screaming. I cover my ears and shut my eyes but the screaming is still going on.

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A/N

Hey guys. It's been a while eh;)
So sorry for the shitness that is this chapter. In fact it's so shite I might delete this whole book.

So I have a proposition.

How would you guys feel if I rewrote 'Finnick and Katniss. A Love Story' as in rewrote it into a separate book fleshing out characters and storylines and fixing those mistakes y'all keep pointing out LIKE THE GREY EYES and just fleshing out the story making it better. But the original will still be up. It's completely up to you guys wether I do rewrite it or not. Tell me what you think.:)

Also let me know what you think of this if I should give up with it and just keep the last book as a cliff hanger and not do inside the arena or what. I'm really conflicted right now.

Love you.

Your suggestions will mean the world to me.

Kat xox