It burns
the pain
I thought it'd heal but it won't seem to go away
my head
it's clouded
to much stress and hate and life all the things I doubted
it's come true
my nightmare
I have people there but I still feel the fear
all they ever want is my future
of course I do to but sometimes I just need a break
and I don't care if it means nothing to you it's mine
and if I love it then stop trying to make it die
and sometimes healing things takes time
so stop thinking that what I say is a lie
because if you'd just wait like I said to all along
maybe you'll find out that I'm not always wrong
and somehow you always turn the blame to me
did you know that every time you do it leaves another cut to bleed
my soul is to bruised
to many times you punched it because you never knew
my wrist is red just like my eyes
you made it like that you shouldn't be surprised
they think I'm strong but I'm just so weak
I can't stand up not on my feet
and I tried so hard I swear I did
but my dreams have been crashing since I was a kid
and now I'm as lost as ever
and my head hurts so much I think I have a fever
to scared to move in fear I'll stir the monster
to scared to even breathe in fear It'll start to wander
what will I do it could end so easily
I used to go about life so gleefully
but now every day I seem to cry
there's no more shine left in my eyes
and all this rush and commotion
left me feeling so out of motion
I tried to stay in sync
but in the end all I did was sink
and now there's nothing left
just an empty numbness
and I feel so beaten up
my hands they seem to shake
all my life just looks so fake
there's only so much I can take
can't you relate
don't tell me it's fate
and I really want to hate
but I won't take the bait
because all my life I sank
every breath I moved down a rank
but once I get it out
and there's nothing left to shout
my mind it starts to clear
I can see things far and near
I know that I'm at fault
I knew it all along
I just hate when people are closedminded
but I did
I was
now I see that that was the fuss
the rush it was all for nothing
I just want to amount to something
anything
anyone
but I guess not with what I want
if you can't see how much I love it
if you don't want me to do this
if you can't see the fire in my heart it lit
if you can't take this one hit
if you want to send me to a bottomless pit
if you really want my life to split
if you really want to admit
if you want to lose it
if you don't want to permit
if you don't want me to commit
if you don't want me to submit
if you don't want me to benefit
if you don't want my sun to orbit
if you want my happiness to be whit
if you don't want me to have spirit
I'll quit
just remember that I love it.
