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Day 16- Someone That's Not In Your State/Country

Day 16- Someone That's Not In Your State/Country

Dear Alex,  

     This is a small list of my fangirling problems and habits that have to do with you. I love you!

1. when he's amazing and doesn't get enough credit for it.
2. when living in narnia affects my fangirling.
3. when i see him on the screen and hug it and everyone else around me thinks I'm weird.
4. trying not to fangirl too much because then they'll know him, get super famous and get a point where i'll never see him.
5. thinking about him right before bed, hoping to have a dream about him.
6. wishing I could be his best friend.
7. having something dedicated to him.
8. sticking up for him against any hater.
9. when someone says his name and I automatically turn to where I heard it.
10. say something to him at least once a day
11. when people get obsessed and dedicated mixed up
12. when he always gives me the butterfly feeling in the pit of my stomach
13. when he makes my heart melt on a daily basis
14. when he makes me feel insecure because he's gorgeous
15. when i fangirl so much i start calling him my boyfriend and then realize it'll never happen
16. when i have to stay up late or wake up early to see him cause of time difference
17. when i wish i was his pillow
18. when i want him to be successful, but not too successful so i have some chance of meeting him
19. when i suddenly think about him and sit there smiling like an idiot
20. when his picture won't load
21. when he wears clothes all the time
22. when i want to hug him in person, but i can't
23. when i don't know how to get his attention on social networks
24. when i suck at making fan art/credits
25. when no guy looks like him where i live, so i plan on being forever alone
26. realizing i fangirl over him when he doesn't know my existence and then i have an emotional breakdown
27. when no one talks to me because they know i'll talk about him
28. when i've never seen them in real life and probably never will
29. when i don't think i'm pretty enough for him
30. when i plan what im going to say to him in video and then totally freeze in front of the camera
31. when i'm jealous of other fans
32. when i feel like i know him but realize he doesn't know i exist
33. when my friends don't like him so i can't hardcore fangirl
34. when all my friends wanna kill me cause i fangirl too much
35. when you have 1,000 pictures saved and can't find the one i'm looking for
36. seeing him in pictures with other girls
37. when you tell them how much you love them via social network and worried they think i'm a stalker
38. when i come to realization that i won't have his babies
39. when people don't understand why i cry over him
40. when i love him, but hate his fans
41. when i try to act normal, but see him and go crazy
42. when i don't want him to get famous, but at the same time don't wanna be selfish
43. when i lose sleep from fangirling all night
44. when all i did over the summer was fangirl
45. when people think i only like him for his hotness
46. when everything i see and hear reminds you of him
47. when he's such a big part of my life when i'm such a little part of his
48. when i'm unattractive
49. when i wanna cuddle in bed and talk for hours, but i can't
50. when i can't sleep because i'm thinking of him
51. when my sexual frustrations build up so high, i don't know what to do
52. when people think i'm creepy
53. when he never comes to my country
54. when he doesn't know i exist
55. when all i wanna do is talk about him all day but no one loves him like i do
56. wishing i was lucky enough to meet him
57. when my bestfriend gets mad at me for talking about him 24/7
58. when my name doesnt sound good with his last name
59. calling dibs on him when i know hundreds of others have it too
60. when i realize my whole summer was fangirling over the computer
61. when you wish i could just meet him randomly and realize i'm in narnia
62. not having him in my bed
63. when his picture doesn't upload cause of too much sexiness
64. knowing i'm not his ideal type
65. when his voice just makes me melt
66. when i'm thinking he can't get any hotter, but he can. and did
67. when i see a shirtless picture of him, i die a little
68. being just another fangirl
69. when he lives on the other side of the world
70. when someone says something bad and i go on attack mode so they think i'm crazy
71. when no one understand why i fangirl over him
72. knowing that no matter how much i think about him, he'll never think about me
73. spending my time spamming him so he'll notice me 

     I hope you liked it! It took forever to type out one by one :)

P.S. Please excuse any mistakes!

P.P.S. I actually sent this to Alex and a video of me for his birthday. He replied, "I just wanna say one thing, you’re FUCKING AMAZING,  I’m almost crying, your video and teh text really touched my heart, every word you say in the description OMG, if that are your true feeling, all I want is to hug you, and make that your smile lasts forever, thank you so much <3<3<3" His typing is a bit off cause he's from Spain, but I think he's the cutest.