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Day 29- The Person You Want To Tell Everything To, But Too Afraid To

Day 29- The Person You Want To Tell Everything To, But Too Afraid To

Dear "Jerk,"

     Hey, it's me again. And I'm writing yet another letter to you. Well I can't help but want to tell you everything and it's the subject for this letter so suck it up!

     Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I wanted to tell you everything and I mean everything. Notice how I said wanted. It's weird, isn't it? For the first time in my life I did tell you everything. I "yolo'd" it and told you that I still like you, that I always think about you and how you still mean so much to me. I've been planning on writing this letter to you because you were the person who I wanted to tell everything to, but I never knew it'd happen some day.

     That's not the weird thing though. The weird thing is that you actually might feel the same way as I do. Probably not as much, but it's so unbelievable because we're talking again and you're joking about getting married, going on dates and hugging/kissing me, all those things.

     Well, at first I thought you were joking but now I realize you were kind of being serious. I can't believe we're supposed to have a date soon. You and I. Me and you? It's not registered in my head that it's you. My friends are freaked out more than me. They've realized that you're the guy I've liked for three years, that no matter what you'd always be there in the back of my mind, that you're the reason I started writing...

     You're definitely not a jerk anymore. Okay, you are but more of a conceited asshole whom I still...love. 

     Love? Maybe as a friend. I'm not really sure if I'm "in love" with you like you think I am. I still have to figure that out actually. I don't know. I'm keeping my guard up. For the last few years my love has been going into fangirling over Justin Bieber...whom I don't even love like that, but as a best friend. It's a funny feeling to have feelings for you. It's not like they ever left, but for me to admit it to myself was a big thing.

      I mean seriously?
- "Do you still like me? If you do then I can keep you."
- "You just seem like someone I can spend the rest of my life with."
- "You're a sweetheart."

    I honestly hope everything works out between us. I don't care if we become more or never become anything at all. I just want us to be friends and I want you in my future. You don't understand how happy you make me.

P.S. Please excuse any mistakes!