Tiny teenage heartaches

chapter four (present time)

THREE YEARS LATER

Everyone was wearing black in that stuffy and unairconditioned church. I sat next to Lewis trying to hold back my tears as the Pastor kept talking about how she's not really gone, but I know better. She's gone forever. Oh how I wish I could just give her one last hug. She was the best person I knew. She helped us in our time of need. She didn't just give us material things, she gave us love and compassion. I don't think I'll ever meet another human being as kind and wonderful as her.

I turn and look to my left. Lewis looked like he's about to cry but stays strong. He stays strong for the both of us. I've only seen him cry several times after mom left, but once he got over it, he hasn't cried since.

Sitting next to him was Noah and his mom, both with solemn expressions. The Andersons have still been there for us through the last three years. We've supported them through everything. Danny didn't come today. He hates funerals, and I know why.

I look towards the front of the church where a picture of her is sitting on a stand surrounded by some flowers we picked from her garden. They were her favorite. Just seeing her sweet face reminded me of all the wonderful memories we made with her in the span of three short years. Oh how I wish I had more time with her.

Thinking of her makes some traitor tears spill out of my eyes. I couldn't have people see me break down. I silently stood up walked as fast as I could out of the room before the sobs could leave my throat and the tears could spill down my cheeks. I couldn't take it anymore. I bursted out of the doors of the church and ran. I ran as fast as I could until I broke down crying. I slid down a old oak tree a little ways away and wrapped my arms around my legs. I sobbed and gasped for breath. I felt so broken and empty. Tear after tear slid down my face. I couldn't stop crying. After I ran out of tears I just sat there shaking. I can't remember the last time I've cried so hard. Maybe I haven't.

My grandma was the last person me and my brother had left. Now what will happen to us? Where will we go? Where will we live? What about school?

I couldn't stop shaking. Everything was blurring together and getting dizzy. I couldn't focus. All of my thoughts kept going around in my head. I was so afraid. I was so devastated. And above all, I was so lonely.

Lewis was the only person I have now and even he is away a lot. He goes to a community college thirty minutes away, and after classes he works at a garage and fixes cars. He began to get so tired that he started to spend the night at one of his college friend's apartment. After a while he just moved in and they split the rent. (Which put a small dent into his savings.)

What will I do now? I can't move in with Lewis and his friend. He would never be home and it's too far away from my school. Where will I go? He can't support me too.

In the distance I could see a figure coming my way. It was Lewis. I stood up and ran to him. I hugged him which caught him by surprise. "What's wrong?" he asked, "Why did you leave?"

"Lewis what are we going to do?" Tears were streaming down my face, "Where am I going to go?" I question. Lewis hugged me tightly.

"Don't you worry about a single thing," he says sternly, "I am going to fix this. You just need to focus on school. We may not be together all the time, but we will soon." his voice cracked as he said it. "I don't know what will happen, but it's going to be okay." I nodded my head and he wipes away a few stray tears from both of our faces.

"Ok. I love you Lewis."

"Love you too Mack." He says and give me a strong hug. A hug strong enough to put the world back together.

A/N-
Short chapter, I know. I just couldn't fit any more into this chapter without it seeming choppy. Most chapters will be longer than this though. Keep reading a couple more chapters of the present time if you're unsure if you like it. It'll start to pick up pace.
comment
vote
follow
Much love,
hannah<3