Awake (A BTS Fanfiction)

Chapter 1: Juvie

Taehyung's POV:

I felt my legs wobble a bit as I was told that I was being released. Two years. Its been so long. I don't have to worry about being beaten up tomorrow.

Those cells had me thinking. A lot. What else is there to do? Huh?

I was given a white shirt, blue jeans and a pair of shoes. I was also given my C necklace. I stuffed it in my pocket. What will they think of me? Of this? Do they even still love me?

I couldn't stop thinking. It's all I've ever done here anyway.

"Its time." I heard the officer say sternly.

I didn't end up being as tough as I wanted to be. I was still weak. Frail. Hurt. Quiet...mostly feeling the betrayal of that boy.

I walked out if the gates and I saw 7 figures standing by a car. A van. My eye sight was a bit blurry. I soon realized that it was who I called my friends. Brothers rather.

Jin, Namjoon, Yoongi, Hoseok, Jimin and my best friend, Chandler. Jungkook? I'd rather not know him.

I noticed that he was holding Chandler's hand. I couldn't be mad. I couldn't be upset. I know that she thinks that I'm a monster. I know. I know.

Everyday, I try to tell myself that its not my fault...and it wasn't. I just can't seem to do that now. Its been screwed in tight and locked in my thoughts.

Chandler's caramel skin glowed from the sunglight and her jet black hair was up in a ponytail. Her eyes, as green and brown as always, were twinkling.

I only felt nervous as I was led closer to them. I was also angry though. I could just hurt Jungkook...but I didnt want to be him.

I wasn't him. I was a good person. I did right. I took care of Jungkook...I can't think about this anymore.

I felt my feet start to drag. I wanted to be emotionless. Monster. That word was imprinted in my head.

Chandler's POV:

To think that I ever called him my best friend hurt. To think that he did what he did hurt. To think that I was around someone who was dangerous hurt.

Ever since I heard about to news, I was devastated. I'd defend Taehyung. I'd say that he wasn't like that. I'm not so sure now.

Was he really the opposite of what I thought?

I was clingy towards Jungkook ever since. He always looked sad. Since then, we kind of fixed each other a bit.

Everyday, I felt more and more love for Jungkook than ever. He was so sweet. So amazing. I made him smile and he made me smile.

I've always been scared to tell him that I liked him. I mean I love him as a very close friend, a close friend because I can't seem to have the heart to replace Tae.

Even with his actions, there was a little desire in me to want to mend our friendship. I knew that I couldn't though.

I couldn't keep such a horrible person around me. He was nothing but trouble as proved. Jungkook, as said, I love him as a very close friend.

Relationship love? I don't want to say for sure quickly.

Taehyung stood in front of us looking down, not saying a word. I wouldn't expect him to. He was to live in a separate house now instead of the dorms due to his actions.

J-Hope was the only one who hugged Taehyung. He told him that he missed him.

Rap Monster, who contained his emotions, spoke to Tae in a monotone voice. I figured he'd be the one to miss him the most.

The officers let Tae go. "You are to live separately from us Kim Taehyung, we just want to be safe. You will be sitting in the back seat of the van."

Taehyung nodded. Kookie seemed upset. Very upset and just out of it. We all got in the van and Jin got into the drivers seat.

I sat next to Kookie as always. I laid my head on his shoulder but he seemed to reject it. "No." He said quietly.

He looked straight ahead the entire time. Almost emotionless. I felt hurt but I pushed the feeling away.

I mean, it is Taehyung's first day back. This isn't about me. I'll tell Kookie how I feel about him later.