hey.
it's been a while. years really. i was only a kid when i first joined wattpad. in more than one way i still am. i am currently in college pursing a couple of degrees and certificates. my interest have changed greatly. in ways that i cannot describe i am the same person who created this account but yet if i looked at that person today, i would not be able to see that person as me. i just wanted to inform you all of how i've been.
i will not sugarcoat it. some days are hard. unbearable. some days i do not have the strength to live on and i'm constantly breaking. but those are only some days. some days, i am strong. some days i smile until my mouth hurt. i laugh until i cannot laugh anymore. i am happy on those days. those days have become fewer and far between. right now i'm in crippling debt and often feel as if the debt is consuming my life and that i can not breathe because of it. those days, i often wonder is life worth living. when will it stop? when can i be okay?
i often look at this account and wonder what i should do with it. i hate the books that i've created. the same ones that many have loved. i feel embarrassment when i look at them but i have no desire to touch them. maybe i will in the future. i don't know. i do plan to come back to writing. very soon. a different style really.
see you later.
